- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2012
I’ve been on spring break this past week. These past two days, I haven’t done much of anything. I did go to the gym yesterday, as well as over to my mom’s house for dinner. Today, I cleaned the kitchen and cooked lunch. All I want to do is watch TV and sit in front of the computer. I think it’s actually been the cause of my headaches today.
March has been a stressful month for Fiance and I. We wanted to have a representative from each of our churches at our ceremony (with the one from my church–who is also a family member of mine–be our main officiant). I didn’t anticipate my church being so stringent on this, because our church has loosened up about a lot of things in the past few years. Well, they are still strict on it. We’ve had a talk with the minister from my side, and Fiance isn’t happy about this. On the other hand, we haven’t heard from the Catholic side yet (which is his side), but I’ve heard from others that they aren’t too lenient on things. We’ve been trying to fix this, but our invitations have already been ordered, and it’s just a huge mess (side note: we have talked about religious issues already, and items that could come up in the future…still, dealing with them is stressful). I’m wanting to make everybody happy with this, but I feel like I’m failing and that Fiance may resent me. Oh, plus, we’re trying to do this while he’s living a few hours away for grad school.
Plus, not to mention Fiance has his thesis due on Monday and has had very little support from his lab boss, I had conferences and report cards, not to mention every day stress of work. When I head back on Monday, we have 11 school days until statewide testing, two of which I will be out for work shops through our district.
Fiance and I have been talking a lot, not much about the ceremony stuff, because we’re waiting to hear from the deacon. Everything else is normal, we laugh on the phone, and we say that we love each other. I talked to two of my bridesmaids about what was going on, and both have said that it’s just a part of wedding planning stress.
I seriously have no motivation. In some ways, I feel that I know that it’s going to be a busy next few weeks and I’m trying to stock up on rest. I even made sure to take my ADD medicine, to help me stay focused, and it’s not doing anything. I have a home office to organize. I could do some things for school. I could get out and actually do something. I just don’t feel like it. Any advice for helping me to get back on track?