- 5 years ago
So, this is going to sound strange, but I’m curious as to why this is happening/why/if this has happened to anyone else?
So, about a year and a half ago, I hit my lowest (highest weight) point in weight loss, I was about 145 (at 5’0, I was NOT happy, since I was always thin in highschool) and I went on a diet revolution! I worked out five times a week and tracked the calories I ate EVERY SINGLE DAY. In five months, I was down maybe 2 pounds? (I was hoping in five months I could at least reasonably lose two pounds a month? so ten pounds total) I WAS SO FRUSTRATED. I knew I was overweight and was doing everything to the books! Summer hit, I went home, was diagnosed with a gluten allergy and shed 16 pounds from the body shock. Afterwards I just stopped caring, and I KEPT LOSING MORE WEIGHT, after I stopped obsessing, and let me tell you, NO EXERCISE NO DIET (I was eating like two pints of ice cream a week! or more! Seriously gluten free does not mean healthy at all guys, theres more calories in gluten free foods than not quite a bit of the time!) and I just kept dropping weight like crazy! Here I am now like at 118, pretty happy, but still wanting to get down to my previous goal weight of somwhere between 105-110 and I’ve hit a point where my not caring isn’t having me lose weight anymore. I’m just scared, I’m going to start counting calories and obsessing over my weight again AND NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN, and I’m just going to go crazy! I don’t know what to do, I carry my weight in my thighs, butt, and calves and am hoping to slim em’ up a little. My mom said it was because my body freaked out because I was obsessing about my weight and stuff that it was all a mental thing. Thinking about those frustrating five months just makes me want to cry and eat more ice cream 🙁
Help bees, I’m scared and need a plan of action to get down my last 8-10 pounds, the right way this time!
I should also note, I’ve had some body issues in this last year, and right now nothing is more terrifying to me than gaining weight at the moment, I’m afriad that if somehow I start a regimine I’m just going to gain like five pounds and just feel terrible. 🙁 I’M A MESS.