- 7 years ago
I don’t even know what to do anymore.
I love Mr. A. Truly love him with every fiber of my being.
Annabelle loves him and he loves her.
He has been here for me through everything-the loss of my family, little A’s father abandoning her and he stopped me from making the biggest mistake of my life.
But now I just don’t know. It has nothing to do with him. I will still love and miss him everyday for the rest of my life. Losing him may very well be the straw that breaks the camel’s back.
It’s his family. They just hate me so much. I’m a whore, a bitch, a snob, and now apparently the worst parent ever. Cause ya know, autism is caused by bad parenting apparently. No matter what I do, I am wrong. It’s way more than just them not thinking I’m good enough for their son.
I just can’t do it anymore. How can I commit to spending the rest of my life with people who hate me and disrespect me at every turn? His family is local and Mr A has a young son so we see them constantly. We’re actually spending a few days with them right now. I am locked in my bedroom now.
I just sat through a lecture from his mom and niece about how bad of a stepmom I am. I have had to take on a major role in the little boys life and all I get is shit on. And because of this, his son treats me with absolutely no respect. He screams at me, tells everyone he hates me and refuses to listen to even the simplest command. And his family allows this to continue to happen.
And when he is around, everyone treats Little A like she’s the redheaded stepchild.
Mr. A has been put in this horrible position of his family hating the woman he loves. He can’t take anymore. Since its his family, I can’t make him choice me or them.
I feel so broken inside right now. And I feel completely alone in the world.
I just can’t live the rest of my life like this.