- 4 years ago
- Wedding: January 2014
Ok… let’s first say my boyfriend is completly oblivious to everything envolving weddings and ceremonies, he is like: “what?! you can’t wear white dress to XX weddings?!” he popped this one when we were shopping for the dress I would were in a friends wedding last weekend.
You want another example? Here: “Can we talk to the bride before the wedding?! isn’t that bad luck or something?”
Anyway… our friends got married last weekend and it was so so beautiful, of course by the end of the evening I got a little bit down with the idea that I would never ever have a wedding like that (because this particular bride has a very rich step dad that payed for a princess wedding) but that didn’t bothered me, what bothered me the most was the idea that maybe I would never have a wedding at all. I’m afraid my guy doesn’t understand (or doesn’t want to understand) the beauty I so much love in the romantic gesture of proposing, with a ring (even if its not expensive), get on to one knee and propose… I for once would like to have that classic touch, since I love it so much.
We spoke the other day and I told him to not procrastinate in asking me, to actually “get some balls” (I didn’t say that) and to it, because I wasn’t going to stick around forever. The conversation started when he told me: “Oh… we are dating for less time then them” and I corrected him: what?! they got married in their 5th aniversary and we are dating for 9 years!!!?” what a hell are you talking about?!?” yeah… I was in a mood that day, anyway…. he told me he was not procrastinating, that he wanted to change to a better job first (he was talking so sweet to me), and then do it, and I understand him. The conversation ended there.
So the other day we were talking about moving to america if he got a job there, and I told him it would be hard for me to move there because we are not married, and if he got a job permit or something I would not be able to go. and he says something like: oh in that case we get married so you can go with me.
I was shocked. I think he doesn’t plan to propose at all, to be engaged for a while or giving a ring or anything I would love and have dreamed about, he just wants to go downtown and have someone marry us in 5 min and get it over it… i’m sad… I don’t want that at all, I wanted him to propose, to have a normal engagement, some time to enjoy being engaged and plan a small recepcion for family and close friends… but I’m afraid he doesn’t realise that is the normal (or most common) thing to do, he says “marry me”, like something irrelevant that he can do in 5 minutes and get it out of the way…
I want to feel special… I’m afraid I’m not going to get that…