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And I know deep down I won't be.  I just need to vent really quick about this.  I spent four years in college and even a few years before that knowing what I wanted to do with my life.  I even knew what schooling I wanted to go through with later.  And then I did it.  I worked at a group home and while I loved it and loved the interactions, it wasn't what I wanted to do.  It stressed me out sometimes and wore me down and didn't at all allow for the kind of schedule I wanted.  I realized I wanted something less restricting in schedule so I could work and raise a family the way I wanted to (although I will still probably volunteer in places like women's shelters because I do love it).

So here I am, my husband has a fantastic job and tells me I can go back to school if I want because we can definitely afford grad school for me.  And I was sitting here yesterday realizing I had no idea what to do.  I had spent all that time invested in one plan so I didn't want to throw it away but I couldn't come up with a plan I'd be 100% happy with concerning that major even though psychology still really interests me.  

I realized I love to plan things, I like to organize things.  I love planning trips, I loved planning the wedding.  I love all of the stress building up and then seeing a final product.  So I thought about event planning, which is still a possibility.  But then I came up with a great idea.  I've always wanted to learn to cook and my brother is a great cook and has always wanted to put that to use.  

So my plan?  I'm going to get an Associate's in Hospitality with a few extra classes on business on the side.  I'm going to do it online since my husband's job requires us to travel a good bit.  Then my brother and I are going to collaborate for about a year and see what we can come up with in the way of a small two person catering business.  It'd just be small, no huge events to start and maybe one day work up to a few more people.  

This sounds exciting but scares me too.  It would allow us to start a family while I worked all of this out as well as work from home (besides the events of course) but I know it could easily fail.  I also know I hate that I knew what I wanted to do and finished my degree easily and now I'm just letting that go.  I just needed to get that out because I'm going to look into signing up for classes soon and it freaks me out that I'm changing directions completely.