- 6 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
So I feel crazy, I have cried, wanted to punch someone in the face AND run 20 miles to release my craziness, EVERYDAY for the past 2 weeks! I have absolutely no control! My wedding is 28 days away and my parents havent even booked their flights yet to come out here, I live with my future in laws and my parents are expecting me to find a place to live and move out in the next couple of weeks so they could stay with me (they offered to pay for all moving expenses but still more stress!) My fiance was layed off and was gone for 6 weeks working and staying with my family, I am stressing over money, time and an endless list of things to do I wanted to have done by a certain date, but it feels like no one has a sense of urgency (my parents and fiance)! everyone thinks it is just going to get done on its own and in the end it is me. dont get me wrong fiance has helped a lot but all the little details he is lost on. another thing that bothers me is that we have been engaged for about 2 years and I have been trying to get him to practice the first dance with me ( he has no rythm) for over a year and he always says later we have plenty of time and guess what it is 28 days till the wedding and still nothing. oh yeah and have I mentioned how much I hate MONEY!!!! we are paying for the wedding ourselves (sp?) and with hm being layed off it has cut our income by a few thousand a month!!!! (THANK YOU LORD he got another job but started it 2 days ago) so we are short quite a few thousand dollars!!! I am trying o figure it out am sure it will work out. I dont even want to get started on the fact that my mother is planning a reception the week after and I told her that it is on her and yet I am still working on that one too! I am keeping all of my feelings bottled up since I am normally the person that is calm cool and collected but my fiance has definitely gotten a whiff of my craziness. I am also sick of “are you married yet?” and the “are you excited?” all I want it to be is thanksgiving because 1 I LOVE that holiday and miss EATING because I have been on a “healthy food” diet to fit the dam dress! and both receptions will be OVER and DONE with and I will be home and relaxing not a thought going through my mnd of something I think I am missing. I get that from my fiance all the time “are you sure there is nothing we are missing?” ughhh if you are reading this sentence THANK you for letting me VENT…because the vent can go on but it is long enough. ( I dont even want to get into the future brother in law that is threatening to get completely wasted and ruin his brother’s day oh and he ruined his brother’s bachelor party..did mention that he is the best man?)
really end VENT!! thank you for reading.