Post # 1
I’ve gained about 20lbs since my FI moved in, between really awful jobs that had me working 80 hour weeks, his bad eating habits, and medication that my doctor put me on to treat the anxiety for the awful jobs I was working.
For whatever reason, no matter how much I plead otherwise, people take photos of me when we’re out and then send them to me or post them on facebook. Even when I ask them not to. I can’t tell if they do it to make me feel bad by rubbing my nose into how grotesque I look now, or if they just don’t realize that when I see those pictures I go curl up in a ball and cry.
I finally have a job that’s not 80 hours a week, and I’ve finally gotten off the medication, and I’m losing weight steadily now..but I won’t be thin in time for my wedding. I’m just so depressed that my facebook is going to flood with photos of me in my dress, and while I think I look nice when I look in the mirror..once the guest pictures go up I’m going to want to cry and realize I wasn’t as pretty as I thought I was.
It doesn’t help that my step mother likes to tell me I’m fat whenever she can find a reason to do so. It feeds the negative voice in my head that informs me I’m too ugly to get married and have NO idea why anyone would want to walk down the aisle with me. My profile picture on this site isn’t too bad because of the angle, but in real life my face is looks like someone poured pudding out on a side walk and drew eyes on it. I have no cheekbone definition!
On top of it I go in for surgery this week, 3 weeks before my wedding.
Ok, pity party is done. Thanks for listening to me whine.
Post # 3
Honey I’m sorry 🙁 I feel this way sometimes when I see pictures of myself too. Just try to remember that you will have gorgeous photos from your wedding, your photographer is a professional and it’s their job to capture you at your most flattering. As for guest pictures, maybe you could have them only upload to one of those wedding pic sites so you have approval of what goes up.
Amd tell your step mom to shut her pie hole.
Post # 4
We are all our own harshest critics.
Obviously, your FI thinks you are the most beautiful woman in the world. I’m sure your friends and family also think you are beautiful just the way you are [awful stepmother person excluded].
Even if you aren’t the weight you would like to be, you’re getting married, you are going to look gorgeous, and you are going to be happy. Keep telling yourself that until you know it’s true.
Post # 5
@irishphoenix: I’m so sorry sweety 🙁 Ignore that stupid little voice in your head and ugh your stepmother sounds detestable! I’m sure your FI thinks yoj’re drop dead gorgeous! Also, at least for me, whenever I have had surgery done I lose weight. The pain meds just make me want to sleep and I drink mainly water or natural fruit juices, food grosses me out for some reason. Also your photographer is going to take only the best angle shots of you! If its the guest pics that bother you, why dont you have an unplugged ceremony?
Post # 6
@minipenguin: FI is really great. It’s me that has a problem with how I look. And yeah we’re having an unplugged wedding but people ignore me now when I ask them not to take pictures of me and post them on facebook, I imagine on the wedding they’ll ignore me too and shove their samsung in my face while I’m eating dinner or something.
Post # 7
@irishphoenix: I understand you and then I grab a slurpie and well there is that slide. Instead of stressing about losing the weight focus on your strengths and what you do like about yourself. A stressed person can lose less so doing the above can help you lose more and besides 20lbs makes a difference but not one that a lot of people are going to call you fat for, your step mom is just evil. Chin up and smile because there is something about you that FI thinks is sexy and he wants to marry YOU
Post # 8
why not just disable the ability to be tagged in photos?
Then either you tag yourself or not all all.