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I messaged my aunt about how I've been feeling about my cousin. I'm sure she's feeling the same way. And my mom told me the other week that she knows everything I do now.

I'm praying this goes well. I feel awful bringing up something that's an uncomfortable topic with an aunt I'm not that close to. 

P.S. my cousin grew up with me my whole life. We were like sisters. About a year ago she cut me out of her life for reasons she refuses to explain to me. She's out of control. She thinks the weed isn't fucking up her brain. She thinks she can get away with all of this and it's ok to hurt me. I've tried to get over her, stop thinking about her, something, but each and every time I find myself wanting her back in my life. She refuses to come to my wedding. My heart is in half over this. I figured my aunt would understand as she's lost her daughter, too. Why does bad stuff happen to people like this? 

@Bellanouva:I agree with everything you said. She doesn't feel welcome by anyone, so she's putting herself in a position where she thinks violence is what makes her feel loved. (or delusions). I don't think her mother will be able to reach her. But maybe talking with someone who knows how I feel will help with the hurt

My mother claims to know how I feel, but she doesn't. She keeps trying to compare me trying to talk to my cousin with my mom trying to talk to me.