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well not really, lately ive been feeling so out of it(i dont even care if he proposes anymore(when my senses return am sure ill feel different).right now me and my so are kinda on the outs.yesterday when i got home from work i cleaned the entire house.i even cleaned the sticky trash can outside.i started cooking just befor he got home and he was appreciative of the work i did as he always is.we ate listened to mucis and then took a bath.after that we looked at a movie. i had to work early the nxt morning so i didnt go run an errand with him.that was like 11 pm.when he got back he came staright to bed and dropped his clothes on the floor like he always does(grrrr) i simple said just hang ur stuff cause thats how the house get messy so quickly .he said he was tired and that he would do it in the morning .i wouldnt let it go ,so he just left the bed and went in to the living room to sleep.i didnt really care was too tired at the time.i  woke up this morning and was pissed.i just got up on the wrong side of the bed due to what happened last nite.i mean u can go out to drop shit off at 11 pm but cant hang ur clothes?and ud rather get up from bed and go to the living room than just simple pick it up?

what made me even more upset was that when i got up i realised that he had been looking at porn as he usually do for quit soime time now.he'd get up early and go to the living room and look at porn.(dont kn if its my fault cause i would complain alot about him waking me at 5 in the morning for sex). when i realised that he had looked at porn i was so angry that i left home for work upset and didnt even kiss him when he asked .i just said that i was late.fastforward to this afternoon he came home and asked y did i say that i only missed him a lil when he asked me if i did.i said just so...i then started to tell him that y did he rather to sleep in the living room than hear me complain about his untidy ways? he said he was sorry and thats that .i said no that is not just that ..then he said then what is it then..i just said whatever and now we're kinda cold to each other.honestly right now i just dont care..ahhh..

sorry its so long

thanks he is still very into me and always tells me that .but am begining to get concerened about the porn thing.he has as  much told me that he was having problems with it and  that he spoke to a pastor about it .recntly i asked him how he was doing and he said it was ok but i dont feel that way.i feel like the moment i live he is on the interenet looking at porn.it didnt use to bother me before but now am getting concerned about it. i just dont kn how to handle it.

i didnt actually see it.he lives a tell tale sign all the time.our computer keys llights up in blue.when the mute button is in orange i kn is because he didnt want me to hear anything.i also chk the history on the computer which tells me if he was on any sites.and sure enough he was.He really is a wonderful guy but i just dont get this sudden obbession(at least i see it as an obession) ahh!