- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2010
so ive been having all kind of blues the last couple of days, the most depressing 1 is the fact tht i hate my dress!
i just hate the whole thing, the process of shopping, as if there has been any, i couldnt go around and try dresses and have fun and all, i just looked at pics online 24-7 and tried to figure out if this dress will look nice on me or not!
i hate my FI, for taking alot of the joy of the whole thing away from me, A coz we only agreed on a date in June, and tht was devastating, asking him all the time to set a freaking date, i was told im either marrying at the end of this year or early next year, thts less than 6 months ago! so by the time he finally gave me a date i had 4 months to pick, order and ship a dress total, let alone all the alterations tht needed to be done once i had it!
and not only that, i had a budget issue tht i had to stick by, and i hated tht even more, and i started viewing dresses by their price not what they look like. i eventually got a dress tht alot would think is pretty, i think its pretty too, and i think i got it for an amazing price.. but i dont think its WOW, i dont think its MY wedding dress, its just A wedding dress to me.
i love dresses with lace, tulle, bows, ruffles, fun, modern, stylish, and my dress has nothing to do with tht, i feel like an imposter wearing it!
and i hate it, i could have lifted the budget to at least the double intended, coz its wht really matters, its what i would be looking at for the rest of my life, and i cant bear not wanting to look at my wedding pics!
i hate tht, i hate him for it! hes a guy and at the end of the day he doesnt care, and he made me think tht i dont care either, and its all about us! well its not abt us, its about me and my wedding and what i want!