- 2 years ago
- Wedding: September 2017
So im turning 30 on monday. But I’m celebrating this weekend. I think…
If you know my friends even a little, then you would know it’s weird that it’s a few days before and no one has said a word to me about it. Usually a couple weeks out I get a bunch of texts like “so what’s the plan birthday girl?” or something along those lines. Nothing this year.
I even posted on facebook like “guess what this weekend is?!” and still nothing!!!
My sister and I are super super close and even she is sketchy about making plans with me for my bday.
Guys, it’s my 30th birthday and my golden birthday. This is a big one. I don’t usually get weird about this but not hearing anything is throwing me off.
My sister slipped last month and said “somethng” is being planned. She said it because my cousin asked me what I was gonna do. She jumped in and was like “no no there’s something already being planned”. So that’s clue number one.
Clue number two is that no one has said a damn word to me about doing anything.
Clue number three is that my mom said she has her friend’s 40th bday party on saturday….. but that friend is my coworker and I found out her bday is in april…. so why is hr party happening now? weird.
the point of all of this is that no matter what I’m going to be anxious. I hate surprises. with a passion.
my nightmare is to walk into a room of people and have them yell Surprise!!! while I stand there awkardly trying to figure out how I should react. My boyfriend knows this, my mom knows this, my sister knows this, and my friends know this. So it would be weird for them to plan me a surprise anything. I know it would be with good intentions though.
The other scenario is that there really isn’t anythin gplanned and I’m going to look like a lame brain throwing something together on saturday.
I asked my sister directly if there was something planned so I could know if I needed to plan something. I also threw it out that I don’t like surprises in case she somehow forgot? She never responded. Yet she responded to all my other texts that day.
Im confused and nervous now and I can’t really be excited because no matter what it’s not good, either there’s a party planned and I’m going to feel awkward, or there’s nothing planned and tha t means no one loves me lol. ugh!
Is it acceptable for me to just find a comfy corner with a big bottle of wine and let my dirty 30 just quietly pass? :\
Just a vent I guess…