- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2011
I am in a long distance relationship with my FI and I haven’t seen him since December. We are planning a wedding that will take place where he lives. The planning experience been crazy and I would never do it again especially from a distance like this and now its getting way harder. We have about 4 months to go and my FI just got a new job and he has been working two jobs 3 days a week and been very busy that we aren’t talking much lately.
On top of everything , I happen to have problems with my left knee that is unknown and will need to do a surgery end of this month and then have about a month or so of physical thearapy. Doctors told me that depends on what they find out, I might need to get treated for more than that and that means either the wedding will still go on or have to cancle it. Also moving to where my fiance is wont happen unless I figure out what will happen with my health. My parents are paying for surgery and want me to stay here and get better before I do anything ofcourse, I am under my dads health insurance.
I am graduating this month and finally looking forward something that is making me proud of my self, HOWEVER, the problem is my relationship with my fiance is falling apart…
Its been a roller coaster with us lately, we haven’t been having the time to talk that much besides few minutes here and there. He has been very tired that he doesn’t even text me to say few words that will make me happy or feel something. I haven’t seen him since forever and I talked to him about how I feel very alone and need to hear or read somethng from him. I know I might be overreacting but a simple text from him or a short email wont hurt and he can still do it. I am not getting much out of this relationship and we only argue about anything when we have the chance to talk because I am stressed out about everything and a bit depressed because of the chances of might not have a wedding.
All I want is to see my FI trying to make me feel something and feel that he is there and that he cares. I know he does but he isnt showing it at all… We have decided to see each other since things are taking longer for me to move. He is coming next weekend for 2 days and a half to spend with me and talk over everything..
I am not sure whats going on with me… it feels like at times I want to end it because he isnt giving em what I want or making me happy in any way. I know he is working hard for us , but he is making alot of excuses about the simplest things that he can do to show me that he is there for me and that he loves/cares for me.
I could be overreacting…but I feel like he isnt giving me everything and its making me worry about the future and our married life later on. FI says that because of the distance its hard for him to do anything to show me and such , but what if when we live together will still be the same?