- 5 years ago
Okay so my biggest complaint about Mr. Tri has always been his obsession with money… honestly I fear that the man will never propose until he has zero debt. (Between mortgage and student loans it will be YEARS) As a note its not like we are super young either… Mr Tri is 35 and I am 29 so although we aren’t way up there, its not like we are super naive and out of college. I even have gone so far as to figure that it was the only thing keeping us from being engaged… even his family thinks so ( or at least his sister tells me that to keep me from freaking out)
I was previously married to a Jerk whose family had quite a bit of money. Apparently he had been raised to think that lying cheating and being lazy were the way it was supposed to be . I loved that I got to support the jerk while his parents were buying him expensive toys, cars, and buying vacation homes… yeah I get pissed about it since the jerk made a mess of my life for 3 years. Consequently I DO NOT associate love and marriage with money.
I thought up until this last weekend that Mr. Tri’s only reservation to getting engaged and married was just that… Money…now I am about 90% sure I was wrong. I could handle the fact that money was a rationale for us not to be engaged and that he wants to be a provider. Now though, I am not so sure. While at a winter expo we were at a booth and the guy working the booth made a comment to him about buying the jacket I was admiring for his wife ( meaning me) Boyfriend said something back to along the lines of whoa no just a girlfriend… guy responded with something like well maybe she will want to to marry you if you find her something nice ( yeah yeah totally playing the sale) . Mr. Tri’s response about killed me… as it wasI already have enought of that hinting right now… GAHHHH
I wanted to be like hey its been more than 2 years of us dating, do you EVER want to marry me… or are you they guy I kinda thought you were when I first met you. As, a note when I first started dating Mr. Tri, I assumed that he was a commitment phobe… 33 and not one serious relationship, seemed like a safe bet at the time for me who didn’t want much of that… all I wanted was Fun… who knew I would be head over heels 2 years later, and dying to be his wife…serious torture.
I have told Mr. Tri how I feel, but I don’t want to rush him into anything, and moreover, I don’t want to be in a marriage with someone who isn’t all in…. been there done that, I would rather not be married… heck I would rather be 100% single than that. But now I wonder is it really money… or is it more… he is willing to sell/ rent out his place to live with me, no big deal, but marriage gets him antsy… I can tell… Worst part is with the holidays coming, I know his family and mine really want us to get married, and its going to make me feel like an ass when they ask me ( because it seems nobody asks him… only me) when are we going to get engaged and married. Even my mom, who knows how much it all bugs me has informed me that she and my dad would like nothing more than for us to get married… I am about to pop…
Gahh…. I wish that he would eventually just say, I love you… marry me… I don’t care about the size of ring etc… I am happy with even just a silver band… I need happy thoughts