- 10 years ago
- Wedding: December 2008
I just need to rant for a minute. I know that this is petty and I should just chill out, but I just want to get this off my chest:
I’ve known this girl, A, since we were three. She was always prettier, smarter, better all-around than I was. More popular, better musician, the boy I liked liked her, ecetera. I always, always wanted to be her best friend, but I always felt like I was second best, or kind of a charity friend to everyone else. I might just be a paranoid little weirdo, though.
Anyway, A goes off to college 4 years ago, and I was really sad and missed her immensely.. we called each other fairly often, but it tapered off. She went to a school that is WELL known for marrying off its alumni fast, even while they’re still in school. Well, the next year I go to college and within 6 weeks I have a boyfriend, now my FI. FI and I have been dating three years, and he finally proposed in February, a month after my friend started dating her boyfriend/now fiance (which she waited like, 2 weeks to call and tell me about). After my mom and my MOH, this girl was the first person I called to tell her about my engagement.
Now I’m back in our hometown for the summer to plan the wedding with my mom and MOH — we’re getting married in December in our college town, a thousand miles away. I took my little brother to some event today with my friend’s little sister, and as soon as I see her, she says, "Ooh, A’s gonna hate me, but she’s engaged!!!" It happened Thursday. I suppose that since it happened such a short time before she knew we were both going to be back in our hometown, she might have wanted to just wait to tell me in person… but still. She knows her little sister is a loudmouth. And of course, all the little girlfriends who are at this event are all agog over A’s engagement, how did it happen, what’s the ring like, etc etc… they all know me just as well if not better, and none of them have seen me since my engagement. They barely said hello.
Oh, then they asked the little sister when A is getting married. Apparently in October. What the crap?? She’s been dating this guy for 5 months! And I’ve been waiting for my wonderful FI for three years, and she gets to go first? I know I’m just being a whiny little baby, but I figure if I’m going to get any sympathy from anyone, it’ll be here. I know nothing can really be done, and I just need to suck it up and be content, but it still hurts. I want her to be happy, and if this is the right guy, good luck, I know how much waiting sucks, but for once I would like to be the one in the spotlight. Not to mention with my wedding being miles away, depending on where she gets married she’ll get tons of our mutual friends at her wedding and I’ll get very few. And I don’t even know if I can afford to go to her wedding, as I’ll have to be saving for my own…
Sorry this is so long… anyone hear where I’m coming from, or do I just need to calm down?