- 3 years ago
- Wedding: November 2011
In 2011 I married my DH after just 3 years of dating and I regreted it as soon as I started saying my vows.
You see when we started dating I was seeing another guy. We started ‘dating’ around 2 months after I met my DH. Yup I know, STUPID IDEA.
I started falling in love with the other guy. A few of my girlfriends knew about both guys and tried to tell me this other guy was no good and a psycho stalker. I started to believe them.
I broke things off. It was messy. I told my DH everything. We argued and decided to move past as the relationship was still new.
I still loved the other guy. I listened to everyone around me and not my heart. He was sweet, charming, intellegant, and loved me more than anything. He was my MR RIGHT and I let him go. It was as if my DH was the other guy not him.
Before I knew it DH and I were married. Then the regret really started.
The past 2 years have been tough. I still talk to the other guy. He hasnt gotten over me, nor have I him. I realise what a huge mistake I made and now its too late.
I have a child with DH. He is 1 and loves his papa so much. I could never leave my DH but man I have thought about it. I cannot help but imagine how my life would be had i chosen him.
My DH is not romantic, doesnt surprise me, doesn’t make much of an effort with anything and is very selfish.
His priorities are his job, his money, his mother, his son then his wife. In that order.
I messed up big time
I messaged the other guy last weekend. I told him how I felt. This is what he said
There hasnt been a single day gone by since what happened that I havent thought about you.
I have never and I believe will never feel as strongly about anyone as I felt and still feel about you.
I loved you unconditionally and just wanted you to be happy and thought you were and that is why I have kept a distance.
I have tried to go on dates etc wth other girls but none of them made me laugh like you or seemed to inherently understand me like you seemed to.
right there and then I could have happily spent the rest of my life with you.
One thing I do know is that you can change the future however f***** up the past may be