- 5 years ago
Okay, so I have been sneaking around reading posts for the past few week and it’s time to become an official “waiting” bee. I know there’s a ring in the picture and my fear is that I might have ruined his proposal plan.
In a few weeks, i’ll be leaving the country for a month to spend time with my family. Last time we visited them he told them we would be married in two years.. and that was two years ago. This was a self imposed timeline with no rushing on my part. He doesn’t feel terribly comfortable about me going back because my whole family lives abroad and I miss them with all my heart when I am away.. Which seems to make him think that I might not come back from the trip.
So, about 3 months ago (with the trip home planned), while joking and playing around he said something along the lines of the fact that he “wouldn’t let me go without something to come back to”.. which started giving me anxiety. I started to wonder if he was only proposing to ensure my return. And he became very obvious with hints and comments that furthered this feeling of pressure and anxiety that he was proposing because he felt he had to.
And one day I cracked and told him that it may not be the right time and that it needs to wait. Which he was disappointed about, but understood. Except now that we are preparing for our stop through trip in Paris, I am realizing that I took something so special away from both of us. We have a “romantic” day planned with a perfect mix of everything “love” in Paris with a romantic candlelight dinner for two at my favorite restaurant & a night walk along the Seine looking up at the sparkling Eiffel Tower… Ah!
He is the light of my life and I wish I could turn back time. Has anyone else messed up their SO’s planned proposal?