- 6 years ago
- Wedding: March 2016
I had a revelation some time ago. Why it came about, I really don’t know. But I was having self-esteem issues for a while. And I didn’t know how to eliminate those. And it was getting me down. And they were horrific with the ex.
But since I’ve been with the new SO (almost a month now, well, month and a half!), I don’t know. My attitude changed. I feel pretty confident. And happy in my own skin. So what if my thighs are not teeny tiny? My stomach is flat, I have a butt and hips, and I’m really not as large as I thought it was. I’m an American size 4 after all!
I guess this change came about because if someone as wonderful as my new SO thinks I’m very attractive, I can’t be as bad as I think I am. Sure, I’d like to lose a few lbs (try and get some nicer cheekbones haha), but who doesn’t? On the whole, I guess it’s all not bad 🙂
I was digging out some old dresses tonight. And I was pleasantly surprised to find that they fit. And they fit nicely, hips and all. And I bought a killer black dress which looks amazing in these heels I totally forgot I had as well!
I might not be size 0 and 5’10, but I reckon I’m pretty happy with what I DO have. This isn’t arrogance in my eyes, just contentment. And it’s a nice feeling – no more constantly worrying about my figure, or my face or all that. There are bigger things in my life and in the WORLD to worry about than whether my hips are too big or not.
We can’t worry about our height, or our weight, or whatnot (unless it is seriously affecting your life i.e. obesity or anorexia – then it’s a cause for concern). In the end, those are numbers. Just numbers. You get women who look bloody incredible, and then they tell you they’re 5’3 nd 150lbs and you would NEVER have guessed it!
This post is not really a query or anything I guess. It’s just a realisation I’ve come to. And a message to all those ladies who DO fret about their appearance that seriously – you are all beautiful, your SOs LOVE love love you no matter what you look like, and if in doubt, stick on a pair of heels and a hot dress and feel amazing 😉 No-one on the average is going to be size 0 and 5’10 (and if you are, you ladies are beautiful too!)
Oh, and nice underwear helps – wearing nice underwear can boost your confidence SO much it is un-freaking believable! At least that’s what I found.