- Mrs Hedgehog
- 7 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
We just got married. Have been together FOREVER but still, just got married. He doesn’t graduate college until December and I can’t look for a full time job as a Police Officer until he finds a job (If I started the academy now and he only got a job offer in an entirely different city or even state I would be SOL because while I can technically work anywhere, he is very limited to where his game development will take him. And we BOTH need to work. Besides, it gives me time to get in shape and physically ready for the academy.) So, financially we can’t afford it. We aren’t at a place in our lives where we could make a child our priority. We need to focus on getting our lives and careers stabalized. Besides, I do want to spend SOME time alone with my husband just being married.
Outside of all the logic. I still want to start a family so badly right now! We had a pregnancy scare last month and while I was scared because I knew it wasn’t the right time, part of me was hopeful because if I was pregnant, we would find a way. And I would love that baby more than life itself. Gah… why does my biological clock and my life clock not want to match up? Should we have children right now? Hell to the NO! But do I wish we could really really really badly? Pathetically yes.
Anybody else struggle with this? Or am I just nuts? (Which I would totally buy.)