- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
I was engaged for nearly a year before we set a date. And when we finally did that, I got a bit upset because I discovered that we were going to be on a REALLY tight budget.
But then I got an awesome new job and started planning like crazy and put a bunch of deposits down on a lot of things.
And then I got fired. Totally out of the blue.
So now the wedding is almost exactly 1 year away and I am really wanting to plan, plan, plan, and of course pay off what I’ve already put deposits on, but that is obviously going to be more difficult than I thought a month ago.
I didn’t go really extravagant and book the most expensive venues, caterer, photographer, and DJ in the state, but we splurged a *teeny* bit on a few things and now I just feel really stupid and really scared that this is never going to happen.
I am getting unemployment, which will help, and of course my fiance has his job but things are going to be tight.
And while I am looking for jobs CONSTANTLY and applying like mad, I can’t help thinking about the wedding ALL.THE.TIME.
I am one of those people/brides who is panicky and wants to make sure everything is taken care of WAY in advance so this is really rough for me.
I’ve gone as far as to make lists of everything that needs done, specific things I need to order from which websites, the costs, etc, to “hold me over” as far as planning goes, but I’m really frustrated because I feel like there’s no action being taken!
And of course I feel guilty for thinking about wedding stuff when I’m taking a break from job hunting.
I’m just really confused and upset because I went from being hopeless about my wedding to being thrilled and totally hopeful and having a ton of fun to . . . lackluster again.
I’m not expecting a perfect princess elaborate crazy wedding, but … I do want a wedding. I want to have fun planning, not be stressed. I don’t know how to put my plans on hold indefinitely while I wait to get hired. I mean what if it takes 6 months to find a job and then BAM I have to organize everything in 6 months!?!? I will lose my mind!!!