- 5 years ago
- Wedding: March 2013
As the concept of “Forever” really sets in the closer I get to the Wedding, I think I’ve matured a lot. Granted, we were engaged almost two years, but emotionally, in our relationship, I’m in an even better place than I was then.
For example, over a year ago when FI broke the news to me that he was being whisked away to Vegas for 5 days for his Bachelor Party, I basically had a breakdown. Every bad thought and possibility popped into my head and I panicked. I was so scared of something bad happening, that I became a nervous wreck and it really was an awful way of handling it.
We talked about it like adults and I realized that my insecurities were my own. It wasn’t fair to assume the worst, just because the situation was so out of my control. Now, we are only a week or two away from when he leaves for the trip and really, the worst feeling I have is just that I’ll miss him. I even handled hearing that we’d be apart for an extra night really well.
My perspective changed a lot. Instead of thinking something bad can and will happen, I truly don’t expect it to. And it if did, well then he’s a giant screw up, because who does that to someone they’re supposed to love and get married to? Someone I shouldn’t be marrying, that’s who.
I’ve embraced the trust I have in him and it’s actually grown. I realized that this is far from the only Bachelor party he’ll be going to (it’s only the first!) and it’ll be a lot better for everyone if I can just be okay with him going to them. I can’t imagine fighting every time something like this comes up, so I had to just change my attitude about it and I feel much more mature for it.
Anyone else deal with feelings like these?