- 7 years ago
- Wedding: January 2012
I moved back to the US from Japan four months ago, and I’ve been looking for a job since then. The week before Thanksgiving, I was contacted by a recruiter from a temp agency who was trying to find someone to work at Japanese Company (name changed, of course). I had the interview with the temp agency a week before Thanksgiving, the interview with Japanese Company the Monday before, and I was offered the job the next day. I started on Monday for what was supposed to be a six-month-long temp-to-hire placement.
I was told that although it was an accounting position, they didn’t need anyone with accounting experience (good, because I have NONE); they just wanted someone who spoke Japanese. Well, it turned out that they really did need an accountant, and I just didn’t have the skills to succeed. Today my boss called me into the office and fired me.
I’m so upset. First of all, my savings are nearly gone. I desperately need a job. I won’t go hungry or end up on the street because my parents won’t let me, but I don’t like relying on their handouts. I haven’t done it at all since I graduated from college, and I don’t want to start now.
Second of all, my BF and I were finally relaxing about money and thought we would finally be able to set a date for our wedding; after all, I now had a source of income and could start saving. I was going to start emailing the church and some potential venues this weekend. Now those dreams have been shattered. Again. My dad keeps telling me money isn’t something to worry about because he’ll make sure I don’t go hungry, but I also know for a fact that he won’t contribute anything to my wedding. So yeah, money is an issue. I have a whole bunch of saving to do. I had started to relax and think that the wedding could happen in January 2012.
Thirdly, I LIKED working for Japanese Company. I loved the office. Everybody was incredibly friendly, and my boss was awesome. People stopped to say hello. I had a huge cubicle with pictures of my family and friends everywhere. I was really starting to feel at home there. Moreover, I knew the office liked me. In fact, when they fired me, they reiterated over and over again that they loved my enthusiasm and thought I was a good fit for the company, and the only reason this was happening was because I didn’t have the accounting experience they needed – and that they had known that. They said they would keep me in mind for any future administrative positions, and I really hope they do. The job was difficult, but I loved the company.
Fourth, I CANCELED AN INTERVIEW this week because I already had a job. I’m just feeling so discouraged. I thought it was impossible to find a job, and then I finally did – one that I loved – and then they fired me after a week. Even though I know that it wasn’t anything I did, I still feel like I’m a failure. If I couldn’t even manage to keep the one job I got for more than a week, how can I possibly expect to find a new one, especially when I canceled on my other opportunity?
Last of all, I was just so glad to be getting out of the apartment and DOING something. I’ve been in such a funk. Things were good. I felt productive again. I was so glad to be finished with the job search, since that does nothing but depress me.
I know I was only there for a week, but I was enjoying myself, and my life was just getting so much better. Now it’s all come crashing down again. Now I’m just even more discouraged. 🙁 🙁 🙁