- 8 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
I can’t wait for my “surprise” bridal shower next weekend!!! (Someone let it slip,, but I’ll act surprised.) I’ve never had a surprise party before!!!
Problem is that I have to guess and guess and guess how some narcissistic women in my life will behave then and the rest of the events of the next couple of months leading to my wedding. I’ve had some conflicts with a couple of my bridesmaids who I’ve only recently realized are jealous and narcissistic. They could easily act cold to me. My mother is also narcissistic and could easily get upset if the attention is not on her. I also wouldn’t be surprised if some of the women she invited are a few narcissistic friends of hers who behave the same way. If you read some of my posts you know what I mean.
It sucks but I have to both put on protective armor and prepare myself to have fun at the same time!!! But I plan to surround myself with the people there who are genuinely happy for me. For example, my Maid/Matron of Honor, at least a few of my bridesmaids, my FH’s relatives, will be there and happy. I will refuse to allow any one else’s jealousy or misery ruin my time. I’m going to focus on and think, “This is for me, I’m the bride, I’m getting married, I rock, I’ve finally found ‘the one,’ I deserve this!!!” If I really use the self-talk well I know I’ll have a good time. I already bought a new outfit, plan to get my hair done that day and I don’t do these things for myself. But I will that day.
Anyway just had to get that out of my system. No matter who tries to mess with my good time, I’ll say screw them and just party my ass off. 🙂