- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
I’m new but have been lurking enough to know that someone here will know what I mean!
So here’s what going on… It feels like everything is coming to a head in my life, and the life of my SO. I’m gunning for a contract to become permanent, his business is taking off, we’re saving to move out/buy a place in late spring and the discussion of an engagement is constantly coming up.
I know he has a plan, and I’m not worried about him NOT proposing at some point, but this period of waiting (coupled with the stress of the above life pressures) is just about killing our relationship. I think he has some vision of making tons of money and buying me a giant ring but I would be happier with the commitment more than anything in this world.
I left his place crying tonight for reasons I can hardly even put into words. Whenever the topic of engagement comes up, it always ends up in a bicker about one thing or another. I have tried swearing off of it as a topic of discussion (which many of you know is very hard!) but for some reason, that makes me more upset.
I keep telling myself that if we can make it through this brutal waiting period, we can make it through anything (we’ve already pushed through some toughies) but it’s just so hard being on different pages.
Sorry… I think I just needed to rant about this to anyone hat isn’t him. God willing, this waiting period won’t last too much longer.