Post # 1
I am a nurse, working two jobs. Don’t get me wrong, I like what I do. There are good days and bad days, I know. Life is supposed to be a challenge right? Is this job my “challenge” in life?
But the per diem job I have has made me a miserable wreck in the past months. It makes me antsy every day, even days before I am scheduled to work. I feel incompetent at work and feel that a lot of people there are not willing to help. I cry most days after my shift.
Inside I truly want to resign, but it is good money . I am ok without the extra $ though some MORE can help with the wedding…But I am back and forth on whether I should leave or not. I am afraid I may one day lose my license there because I ALWAYS feel behind and lost.
My family has seen how miserable it makes me and begs me to resign. It is really only a few days a month requirement to work some shifts but I am a miserable, horrible wreck every single day I am there. and knowing that I have to do my shifts there actually makes me lose sleep and make me feel anxious, nervous and scared. What do I do? I just do not look forward to my per diem job.
In the midst of wedding planning which is the one thing that makes me happy, my work life here has been a drag. I have never quit anything before either so..that is part of what is holding me back from resigning. Also because a job is hard to find nowadays and the $$ is good. My sister says “$ can’t buy you happiness”, and keeps reminding me that. I feel that I CAN find work elsewhere, it doesn’t have to be at this place..Am I alone? Anyone feel like this?Ahhhh! It is even broken me to have to think soo hard whether or not to leave this place! omg..Yes, being a nurse is stressful but..I mean I feel just horrible there…
Like right now, I am wide awake in bed hoping they will call me to cancel me and tell me not to come in.. Or hoping they’d just let me go or something so I won’t have to lay here thinking about it. 🙁 Am I just being a wuss/baby? Part of me says just suck it up and pull through–but I don’t know for how much longer I can fight with myself..
Post # 3
Leave. You obviously hate it! You don’t NEED the money, and you will make yourself ill over it! No job is worth that. And I’m talking from personal experience! Don’t kill youself for something horrible when you don’t have to.
Oh, and *hugs* you are better than this! Stay strong, stay positive, and bust the hell outta there!!
Post # 4
If you needed the $$ BADLY I would say stay since you don’t its really not worth it. It’s only a matter of time before you make yourself physically sick with how much this stresses you out. Listen to your friends and family they care about you and want whats best for you which is to leave this job.
Post # 5
@kaetia: +1 ….and also *BIG HUGS*
You don’t want to effect your own health and wellbeing hunni.
Post # 6
This was me this summer. I HATED my internship, and got stomach aches every morning, and dreaded going to sleep the night before. Finally it came to an end in August and it was the biggest stress reliever ever! My life dramatically improved. If you say you can find work somewhere else, do it!!! I have many nurse friends who love their jobs and going to work, and I have no doubt you will find something you love as well 🙂
I think that it’s affecting you physically, you don’t NEED the money, so stop! There is nothing wrong with that!
I was happier being unemployed (part time anyway) than working where I was. It’s for the best.
Post # 7
thanks for the hugs..it is so hard..I have never struggled with myself before.
Post # 8
@bump: If you’re a nurse and are pulling shifts where you feel incompetent and no one is willing to help you, then perhaps it is best if you quit. If you’re truly in over your head, it’s easy to get flustered and make a mistake. But in nursing, a mistake can cause serious harm or even worse to your patients. It’s not worth the money if it puts someone else at higher risk.
Post # 9
@fishbone: you are right. I can do what the job requires but the environment in which I work does not feel welcoming or helpful, making my work quite stressful and difficult to work.
Post # 10
If you do not NEED the cash I would say leave. I have been through what you’re going through, I’m sending plenty of invsible hugs through the screen now! There are some things in this life that are just not worth the stress.
Post # 12
If it’s not a financial necessity for you to keep this job, I would leave. The only job I’ve ever quit is a job that left me feeling that way – in tears before and after every shift, stomach aches, etc. I really don’t believe it’s worth it.
Post # 13
you sound like me at a job i used to have. i liked my job, but hated where i worked and the way the company treated us. and i used to cry too- after work, before work, at work…i was so exhausted and burned out and my mom used to bug me about quitting all the time. when i finally gave my notice she wanted to throw a party
if you can get by without the money, quit. you will be so much happier and feel so much better about yourself. there’s nothing wrong with quitting a job that’s making you this miserable.
Post # 14
@lilchicana: yes, I have been debating quitting for 6 months now and I can’t believe I have survived til now. I don’t know how much longer I can takre itt though.
Post # 15
I would leave.
If you don’t need the money, and you certainly don’t need the stress, just politely resign. As a nurse, I imagine it won’t be terribly difficult to find another per diem somewhere that you like. At least where I am from, there are nursing shortages.
Post # 16
As other Bees suggested I would definitely leave, if you are this miserable you could make a mistake, because you’re so stressed out there and miserable….don’t you think you owe it to yourself to save your own life, you work at saving other’s lives, what about yourself, it’s time to take care of your own life and put your needs first.
Hope you make the right decision, and many hugs to you!