- 3 years ago
Long story short…..not.
I said some really malicious things about a friend to a mutual friend (I was venting and hurting) and i’ve now realsied that they were very horrible, rude and I was completly jealous and I really wish she stopped and slapped me.
Friend A (who I told) actually told friend B (who I was talking about) and Friend B is not speaking to me. She told me everything that she was upset about and asked for space when I asked to catchup, even through some old crap in there I had no idea she was upset about. I replied appolgising and asked her to contact me when she is ready.
It’s been a month and nothing so I messaged her to catchup (after my FI told me to deal with it), two days later I got a “no hard feelings, we can be civil” to which I said okay and that I was sorry (again) and that I still want to catchup…….. she didnt reply.
I don’t know what else I can do and Friend B is married to my FI’s Best friend. I keep getting pressure from FI to deal with it because its apparently affecting him now (we didnt get invited to a BBQ)
I did call her today and left a voicemail just to see how she is because I heard she is having a baby and thought well you know what, maybe if I just call and move past all that then it won’t be so akward and it will stop affecting FI and he wont pressure me or tell me ‘stop worrying about it’ at the same time as making me feel this way.
What should I do bees? I feel so horrible that I had a panic attack on the way to work today. I really shouldn’t have said those things but I cant do anything about it. I think we as a couple should go there and break the ice and just glaze over it but….. i’m scared.
Advice is apprecated.