- 2 years ago
I feel terribly embarrassed writing this. I know it’s absolutely insane, and a crazy thing to even think about.
But, I can’t but feel a little insecure that my mom is going to look more beautiful than me, or steal the spotlight on my wedding day.
Although she’s in her late 50’s, she still looks young and modern. She’s always been into standing out from the crowd.
I, on the other hand, like things to look more feminine, pretty and subdued.
For a wedding dress, I was going to wear a beautiful floor-length sequin dress in rose gold. At the last minute, I decided to go dress shopping and found an ivory wedding dress I loved. I thought that I could change into the sequin gown after the ceremony for dinner.
My mom decided she was going to buy the sequin floor-length gown and wear it to my ceremony. I was a little jealous. But, I thought, if she feels confident in it, and she really wants to wear it, then go ahead because I have my wedding dress.
The other day we were talking about makeup. I told her I was going for a more natural look for the wedding. She said she wanted ultra glam makeup, false lashes, red lips, the works.
We are having a super small wedding (only about 10 in attendance). So, it’s not like she’s just going to blend with a sea of people.
Again, it’s my own insecurity, and I feel so strange even feeling this way. But I’m worried she’ll look more amazing.
I know I need to get over it because what’s done is done. I know I probably won’t even think about any of this the day of the wedding. But for right now, I just wish she had let me have my moment.
I originally picked this dress out for her, but she wasn’t having it: