- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
I don’t know how anyone can say this is the happiest time of their lives – the planning, the anticipation, the building up tension. It’s not my cup of tea. I’m a last minute person and weddings need lots of planning. I feel like I can’t take it, I just want it to be over but not in a bad way. I want all the anxiety gone! I’m freaking out about the unstable May weather in Istanbul, I’m freaking out about how the pictures are gonna turn out, I’m not used to be the center of attention and now I’m gonna be the bride! =/
I’m marrying the guy I’ve been dating for the past 9 years, we have waited so long for this day and it always seemed so far away, impossible to reach. For the longest time we didn’t have hope because of various issues such as college, family issues and unemployment. Now it’s only 9 days away, sometimes I’m full of joy and sometimes I cry for no reason at all. I even cried about how we wouldn’t be able to dance with everyone looking at us. I’m not that kind of person who can get lost in his eyes with everyone watching, so stuff like the first dance or the first kiss in front of everyone makes me very nervous. I know I’m not making any sense at all, but can anyone please tell me this is not crazy with only 9 days away?