- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
Well, I’m at the less-than-three-months mark and while this should realization should bring on feelings of excitment and anticipation, instead I feel frustrated, wound-up, and uptight. NOT a great mix for a busy bride-to-be! So, forgive me, but it is late, I’m tired, and I need to blow off some steam.
I just feel all-around frustrated. Frustrated that things aren’t getting checked off my ‘to-do’ list fast enough (which seems to be a never-ending, growing-by-the-minute, can-you-tell-I-really-like-to-hypenate-stuff project), frustrated about the family drama and obligations, and down right PISSED OFF at the cost. That’s right, PISSED OFF. By choosing to plan a wedding in less than eight months and not having too much saved in the first place, my FI and I have been on a crazy saving scheme since the engagement that makes me feel trapped and tapped out. I am saving for a wedding, on top of paying to live (mortgage, bills, FOOD, etc.).
Don’t get me wrong- my wedding will be beautiful, but it’s no Disney fairy tale. I have cut corners where I needed to and saved costs where I could in order to make sure that this day (this ONE day) fits into my finanical comfort zone.
I am a type ‘A’, organized, and responsible woman who gets shit done. To me, there is always a ‘will’ and a ‘way’. In order to make our wedding happen, my FI and I have worked out a financial plan that works and doesn’t involve any debt (a big no-no for me). This plan, while effective, has made it impossible for me to enjoy a carefree dinner out or the occasional pedicure. Instead, I’m constantly counting dollars and calculating cents.
Honestly? It’s exhausting. I’m exhausted. I have this growing feeling of just wanting it to be over with, which sounds completely opposite of what I had hoped to feel like closer to my wedding day. I feel like I’ve waited so long for this day (before our short engagement, I mean) that now that it is approaching it has lost some of its lustre.
So this is where you chime in, ladies (if you’ve lasted this far into my pathetic rant). How are you keeping sane? Is anyone else feeling the heat of financial planning? Got any advice for how I can get myself out of this funk and re-energize my psyche to enjoy these last few months of planning?