- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2015
So I’ve been studying the bachelor of science majoring in marine biology for the past 2.5years, but I haven’t been doing well. For a lot of reasons which I am close to sorting out. I’ve taken a semester off to help resolve my mental issues, wow that makes me sound crazy, no it’s depression.
Anyway, one thing I’ve wanted to do when we could afford it (which is looking to be soon!) is move closer to uni. But the problem with that is my uni is right in the city, I will be able to move closer (maybe 1 hour away instead of 2). Which still sucks. So right now I’m considering moving to a different uni, where I would be able to afford to move right next door practically. Sounds like an easy choice right? That’s what I thought. Well turns out that uni is no longer doing the marine biology major after next year, I’ve sent an email to confirm though.
So right now my choices are move a little closer and stay at uni and hope I can get my grades up. OR change uni, move closer and change major. I could major in conservation biology and ecolgy! Which sounds amazing! My dream job is working on conservation of marine life so it works yeah? Well a lot of marine biology courses are about ecology, aquaculture, fisheries and the water environment. And this uni is nice and close to my work, and ever closer to other stores in my chain so I could transer. If I were to continue working, I will at least limit my shifts drastically.
It is already going to be very difficult finding a job in my field, but even harder if I don’t get the correct major (probably). The way I’m going now, which is a average result of 51% (yup that bad), I’m never going to get my major anyway.
In with the fun that is depression I’ve been feeling like the effort I’m putting into uni is never going to pay off, and I’m worried I’ll end up hating my dream job and realising I wasted X many years of my life. I feel like after spending almost 3 years of half my life on a train, constantly stressed I deserve to have it easy for a while. Before anyone says anything, I’m working on the depression, seeing a new psych soon (taking a semester off meant I had to stop seeing my other one ), as well as starting on antidepressants again that I know work for me.
Anyway that is very messy and crazy because I just cannot stop thinking about it. Fiance has been amazing and has said we can go wherever I want and do what I want. His work is very flexable and I have spent the past 2 years supporting him, plus he’s willing to travel.
I know this is pretty whingy and A LOT of people travel just as much but I find it very very difficult. I’m just constantly exhausted.
I guess the point of this is to rant a little, and ask if anyone has been through this? Changed their major to better suit their mental health, if that’s what this is.
Thanks everyone in advance.
Side note, I put this into college even though I’m in Australia and it’s uni.
- This topic was modified 3 years, 7 months ago by GalaxyCat.