- 2 years ago
- Wedding: September 2015
Before I go on, I want to be very clear, I love my FI and we have grown into our own together and I deeply care for him.
My FI and I have been together for 5 and a half years, we have been engaged for one of them. My FI and I have had to deal with a lot of long distance love, his work takes him out of town a lot and he can be gone weeks, months, days it differs. Recently his job has him out of town during the week and home on weekends. Currently, my FI is home for a 6 week stretch and holy crap is that a long time for us to be together, I am so happy! However, things seem rocky..
I have always felt like I was in the honeymoon stage more than my FI was this entire relationship (don’t get me wrong he was like so honeymooner when we first started dating but he’s calmed down a bit), I’ve always wanted to be around him and felt like the beginning stages of our relationship (probably because we are apart so much) but now I feel like I’m coming into my own and it’s weird. I don’t mind the separation as much, not saying it is easy but I’ve come to terms, and I don’t feel as honeymooner as I used too.
Furthermore, since he’s been home (3 weeks so far) we have been getting into small arguments, actually we have basically since we got engaged. Little things that seem insignificant and things that were always present like, how we plan on decorating our house, how his mother still babies him and I find it annoying, how he is not a big fan of PDA (which I have always known and been okay with). It seems like anything I can pick a fight about I do, and if I don’t get my way in house decorating then I get all upset and say it’s always his way and not mine.. I can’t believe how crazy I am being..
recently we discussed when we will be moving in together, we are waiting til marriage, and he said he planned on moving his stuff in after the wedding and honeymoon and I got so upset because that means as soon as we get home from our honeymoon we will be surrounded by his crying mother as we pack up his stuff (he only will have a little bit of stuff). We will be living right next door to his parents on a 5 acre lot, why should she even cry and say I’m taking away her baby if he’s literally moving down the road!?
im just wondering why the heck I’m getting so confrontational and why I’m so angry all the time! Is it wedding planning and life planning stress? Will this pass? We were NEVER like this, we rarely even got upset before our engagement unless it was my TOTM and I was acting emotional..
Please tell me someone else has experiences like this, I love this man and I hate hurting him by being upset about things and taking it out on him, I want our engagement to be enjoyable but right now I just wish we were already married and it was over!