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Agghhh I just need to vent a little because DH is the only person I can vent to in my immediate life and he has to hear it too often!
I'm having one of those days where I curl up and sit in the dark surfing the internet, not eating till 1pm because I'm hung up on a stupid argument DH and I had, and how it probably wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been so moody.... so circular!

Lately I've been a bit of a wreck, mostly dwelling on frustrations around: Moved to a new country: No close friends outside of DH, have been looking for work for 5 months and am feeling very unemployable, having given up my favourite hobbies because either they don't exist here or attending them was making me depressed, I can't afford to pay my student loans though grad school is feeling necissary but taking out more loans is really getting my down.  Meanwhile DH has a good job, has a band with three of his long time best friends, is just a super great guy and in my current situation I feel I can't compare. 

And then I just get really low self esteem because I'll start feeling really clumsy - nearly knocking pots off the stove, making multiple mistakes in a board game in succession.... and then last night when I got dinner together, apparently I didn't make enough food and DH couldn't sleep because he was so hungry even though he had more food after dinner, which he got upset at me about for not assuming he'd want more since we exercised, which I got upset for getting the blame because I made what I often make after exercise nights, he was goofing around on the internet though said "he'd be right in" to help but never came, and he didn't eat all of it, and the frustration of the argument hadn't left me by morning, which led me to having this day of being pathetic.

I just keep getting caught up on everything and get so down I know I can be miserable to be around.... sometimes I can snap out of it, sometimes I go out and have coffee dates with female friends, some days I spend researching different potential ideas for myself and get really excited, but lately every other day my moodyness just swollows me up.

Sorry!  I just needed some place to put all of that, and help get my day together.