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I just realized that I am at my top level of depression and negative emotions. Not only because of the wedding, but also everything around me, like work, education, people.

I feel like I can't breathe.... feel extremely bad.

Do you have positive or negative emotions now?

I am trying to make sure everything is done, people though sometimes can just be a debbie downer and have no clue what to say sometimes ...UGHHH cant wait to just relax

I'm with all the girls who want to be on the beach with a cocktail in hand.   I'm so happy i'm going to be marrying my best friend but everything else is driving me crazy!

I'm a mixture of positive and negative depending on the hour. I swear I'm losing my mind...

Feeling overwhelmed with my to-do list that seems to never stop growing, bummed that my overall "look" for the day is not what i envisioned it being (started that thread a few days ago! pity parrrrrty!), and super duper sad that my best friend (who is also my little brother AND the best man) will be moving 4 hours away the day before the wedding because his job transferred him. He's doing everything he can to make sure he's at the wedding- but I'm mostly sad that he won't be down the street from me anymore! :(

As far as positives go, I'm looking forward to finally making it official after almost 7 years, to going on my honeymoon and relaxing in the Mexican sun for a week with my new hubs, for being able to CALL him husband, the new house we are getting together that will be ready for move in the day we get back from Mexico and to see all my friends and family that are flying down for the wedding.

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Good luck to all ladies! I don't feel alone here. I am also trying to focus on positive feelings only. Right now, I just wish the day could come and pass sooner!

Definitely feeling negative.  I was just thinking about this today actually, that I haven't felt this depressed in a long time.  Who knew planning the happiest day of your life could make you feel so awful?!  =/

It's such a mixed bag!  FI is having a lot of problems at work that are effecting his mental state greatly.  It's been a hard time for him and for our relationship.  Then again, realizing how strong we are and how well we are working through it makes us even more sure that we want to marry each other!

I have not posted on the Bee in months because I havent had any time!!! When people ask me how I am feeling- I can't even reply, thats how overwhelmed I am!!!

In the 17 months that I have been engaged, I have had some major life changes. I decided to start a very grueling new career, we bought our first house, and unfortunately my mom passed away unexpectedly at the beginning of our engagement. I work 60-70 hours a week (and my job is very emotionally draining) and am toooo tired to get wedding stuff done. FI and I have dated for over 7 years so I am ready to just get this show on the road!!! Haha. I am super overwhelmed, but at the back of my mind...I have extreme joy and peace knowing I finally get to marry my one and only soul mate.

So with that being said--I'm sure we all have mixed emotions....but our days are almost here. Good luck ladies!!

I'm pretty sure I'm going to scream if ONE more person asks where we're going on our honeymoon, and I have to tell them we're not going on one.  We can't afford it, and I was totally fine for a while with not going on one, until everyone else around me getting married could not stop talking about their honeymoons & even friends who aren't having their weddings until this winter or aren't even engaged yet are going on trips to Hawaii or Jamaica or to the beach somewhere with their boyfriends/fiances... hearing them talk about their trips and/or seeing their pictures just really bums me out & now I'm really sad that we don't get to go anywhere.  

I just feel like we keep getting knocked down.  FI got a job offer & was supposed to start training a week ago.  Now corporate is telling him they have to wait for all these other things to go through before he can start.  And now it may not be until July.  

We just moved & sold all our furniture before the move.  After spending 3 hours at a huge furniture store in the area, and being assured by all the sales people that we didn't need to do the credit check/financing until we were ready to check out, we found out that they would only approve FI for 1,000 (we picked out $2500 worth of furniture because they're having a 30 month interest free financing special for memorial day).  FI has practically perfect credit (our landlord said she doesn't see credit scores like his unless it's for people double our age.. she raved on & on about it when we moved in) so we weren't expecting that & had to stand there at the counter & go through all our tickets & try to remember what was what & which pieces we could still get.

The backlight on my laptop went out the other day, which was awesome, making the screen totally unuseable.

My parents are on my case about everything wedding-related & are convinced I have a million things left to do on my list, so I need to come home now ( a month in advance) to get everything done.  But, they won't tell me what needs to be done, my dad just keeps saying there's a lot & I better come home, despite that I think I've knocked out a good chunk of it.  Really irritating. I'm SO grateful that they offered to pay for the wedding so we wouldn't have to wait 2 years after being engaged for me to finish grad school & be able to start working for a year, but sometimes I just want to scream.  They're SO anal about having everything done way in advance, which is not my style.  I get it done in time, I've never left a project undone, but I don't feel the need to stress to get it done a month in advance when I can take my time.. but they just won't let up.

I feel like everything is really starting to get to me & I'm about to lose my mind!

At this point just thinking about the wedding makes me depressed and anxious and I just want it to be OVER. I am so done with spending thousands of dollars to basically live out my worst nightmare (everyone staring at me, huge party with lots of socially obligated conversation, my mother chirping at me to 'smile my real smile', dancing, walking down some giant stairs in an enormous dress, family photos, pressure to act happy all the time, pressure to look perfect the whole time, PDA, everyone bearing witness to something that's supposed to be romantic...) 

My only upside is I get to marry FI. YAY! But honestly I just want to be on the other side of it regretting not going to the courthouse as opposed to having a nervous breakdown about the wedding. Kind of like when I ride passenger with FI in his junk heap, haha. It's scary and unpleasant, but unfortunately necessary, and I just want to get out of the car!