I feel like I’m at the pinnacle of both positive and negative right now! It’s crazy.
On one hand, I am SO excited for the ceremony that I am finishing up writing… that in a month I will say these vows with my sweetie and we will end the day as husband and wife.
I’m happy that my to do list is shrinking each day, and I no longer feel overwhelmed by my projects. I’m happy thinking of how I will look that day, and how FI will look when he first sees me.
On the other hand…I am stressed. We are likely giving up our dog very soon for a variety of reasons and that’s been hard. FI started a new job, he’s worked it before, but there is a new schedule and it’s been tough only seeing him on the weekends. Work is very busy for me right now, and I’M GETTING MARRIED IN A MONTH!
There’s a lot of extra pressure for me, as many people don’t see it as me getting married, but a person who has been a wedding planner for the better part of a decade getting married. Expectations are high.
And trumping all of that is my mother. She’s crazy. And yet again, just yesterday, a mere 31 days until the wedding, she has once again changed her mind as to what she will be paying for for the wedding.
Leaving us at this point, without the ability to offer any sort of bar to our guests, or even cocktail reception food, and putting our modest minimoon 4 hours away in jeopardy.
It’s not fun, it’s not pleasant, it’s made me ill and I actually cried at work yesterday.
But… I have faith somehow it will all come together and I will remember why my brides love working with me… I will remind myslf to take my own advice and in the end we’ll have an amazing wedding and memories to share.
Until then… Ima just gonna tweak a little bit more 😉 And have some cocktails. And cookies 🙂 And BEE very VERY thankfull for Weddingbee. Where we can share these emotions with other strong, brave women going through the same things – all here to help each other reach that altar and life happily ever after 🙂