- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 1999
I just need to vent a little. The waiting is getting to me lately, as explained below:
My Boyfriend or Best Friend and I will have been together for 6 years as of June. I’m 31, he’s 29 and we will be getting engaged soon. He’s wanted to marry me for 5 years but I wanted to be done university first, and I will be soon.
He suggested about 4 years ago out of the blue that we go look at engagement rings. Great! It was naturally very fun and exciting.
Fast forward to last summer. My Boyfriend or Best Friend came home and was all smiley and said he had something important set up for the next week. He wanted to tell me but said that he shouldn’t, but he eventually couldn’t stand it and confessed that he was meeting with the jewellery designer we knew we were going to use to design my ring. Great! So he wanted to go look at rings in stores again so that we could figure out the exact details that we wanted. So we did, and we printed out a photo of the ring and I drew a sketch of it to show all the details for him to give to the designer. Great!
So, I know that the ring is ready and my Boyfriend or Best Friend said he had finished with the payments, which meant that the ring can now be picked up. But then recently he’s been saying that he’s not done with the payments, so I’m not sure if he’s just trying to throw me off or what. He constantly make comments about the rings he sees on the Hive, really specific things in terms of cut, colour, clarity, settings. I’m like o_O!! He knows his stuff, wow!
But then the other day he said that he’s not sure when he’s going to propose, that he hasn’t decided when so I won’t be able to figure it out and ruin it (I have an uncanny knack for unwittingly ruining his surprises). Not so great! Our 6 year anniversary is in June, so I figured he would do it before then, but he might not. We’re going away for the weekend of our anniversary, so maybe he’ll do it then. But wouldn’t he already know that, and he said he doesn’t know when he’s going to do it.
If you’re not going to do it then STOP TALKING ABOUT IT, man! You’re driving me crazy!! He won’t let me ask any questions about the ring (simple questions like “Are you happy with the way it turned out?”), but when he talks about it it’s okay. I’m one of the least patient people you can imagine, so I think that I’ve been extremely and uncharacteristically patient in this situation, but what little patience I have is wearing thin. I find myself feeling angry about it lately.
…..Thanks for listening^_^’ I’m such a Venty Venterson right now.