- 3 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
Just looking for an outlet to vent, de-stress and get my thoughts out.
sometimes I feel so alone, and worried and anxious about the baby stuff.
i feel like I want nothing more than to be a mother, I Just am so nervous that I’ll have trouble getting pregnant.
I got told I have PCOS a couple years ago, after not getting my period for 8 months! I went on weightwatchers like a year and a half ago, in part to be generally healthier, to help my PCOS symptoms, and lastly to look as good for my wedding as possible.
I started at 304lbs at 5’5. I got down to 215 be May of this year. My wedding was 6/14/14, i feel like as soon as May got here I started stress eating like crazy…I gained like 10 pounds before the wedding, and now, 3 weeks after the wedding I’m all the way up to 229…I gain weight so, so easily, it’s like, unless I stick to WW perfectly, I balloon up imediately. I’m in tears just writing this, I’m so frustrated.
I’m so worried that when my hubby and I try to conceive I’m going to have such a struggle between being so overweight and my menustration cycle being so out of whack. I’ve been on BC since my diagnoses, so I really dont have any idea how weight loss has affected my cycle, if at all…
I get sad about this all the time, and now that the wedding is over ,which is also super depressing :(I have to start atleast start considering when me and DH should start trying….
I just wish someone could tell me it’ll be ok, I just know how much I want to be able to have children, and for some reason, I just always think of myself as someone who is going to struggle, I wish I could just banish those negative thoughts, because, truly,I have no real reason to feel this way, I haven’t even tried yet.
sorry for the weird random diary-type post, I think the wedding being over is giving me too much time to think about things other than table decor,and signature cocktails….lol