Post # 1
I always knew the day would come when reality would sneak up and rear its little head at me. I always thought I would be ready, but don’t want to face it now that it has. Yes, I am going to married to the most wonderful man in the next few months. I am going to have all of our family and friends standing behind us watching the most important step in our lives. Yes, I will be gaining the sweetest, kindest little boy in the world and be able to call him my stepson.
However, my best friend will not be with me. You see, on my 20th birthday she was killed in a car accident on her way to visit me at college. I have never truly dealt with the pain and facts of the accident or the realization that OUR dreams of childhood are forever gone.
I will know that she is with me in spirit, and maybe for some that is good enough, but I want her here physically. I want her to be the one that tells me how lame bridal showers are, and then throw me a hell of a bash. I want her to be the one to mix the mimosa’s in the morning with me. I want her to tell me that I am throwing away my life by not staying single, but know that she truly does love my husband, and could not be happier for me. I have finally come to realize that my best friend will not be here, and it sucks bad.
Sorry I just had to vent and cry, and I know that life goes on and only the good die young.
Post # 3
I’m so sorry for your loss. Miss Snow wrote a post about taking the good with the bad and using both to help celebrate the good and overcome the bad. I think this applies to your situation. I can’t imagine the pain of not having my best friend at my wedding, and you are so entitled to vent and cry about it. But remember that she’d be so happy for you and that she’d want you to be happy and be able to celebrate even without her.
Post # 4
I am also so sorry for your loss. I lost a close friend of mine at about the same age. Venting and crying have been the healthiest ways for me to cope with her loss. Please feel free to keep sharing, we’re here for you!
Post # 5
I am really sorry for you loss. It is such a hard thing to deal with, but she is with you in spirit, and that means a lot also.
Post # 6
I’m so so sorry. It is such a treasure to have a true friend and I can’t imagine how much you’re missing her, especially at this time in your life. I will say a prayer for you.
Post # 7
Thanks girls, sometimes i forget how painful it can be without your best girl friend.
@ Lilybay, she was a true friend. I just remember a funny story and though i would share it about her. We wore the same shoe size, and she always had the “newest” styles. I was a struggling college kid in hippy west virginia, never wearing shoes! However I had fallen in love with a pair of her favorite shoes and would always try to steal them. Years after she passed away, i went out with her brother for drinks and he told me we were going somewhere that shoes were required. He went to his car, and said “here, I have had these sitting in my car for years, and have never had the heart to throw them out.” Wont you know, they were THE shoes. I laughed and asked where he got them, and he said they were wrapped in the back of her car from the accident. I laughed and cried at the same time, she was finally giving me the shoes i Loved. (they were totally outdated by then!!)