- 9 years ago
so i apologize because whenever i post to weddingbee, it doesnt seem to be about weddings – but it just seems like such a positive environment to draw information and comfort from.
so without going into too much detail (i am ashamed and embarrassed of the way i acted haha) me and my boyfriend recently ended our relationship. now i am learning how to be single and read:alone again. i have read many threads about marrying too young, etc and things of that nature which made me realize so many things and get so much comfort from.
so here goes – i know this sounds ridiculous, but i am scared of never meeting another guy i like enough to even be my bf. i am in college right now, and every guy i meet (i attend an ivy league and yes the guys here are very intelligent but not very.. desirable to say the least :P) i know it sounds silly because i am only 20, but.. i cant even begin to imagine how to meet people outside of college. how do people meet so perfectly? and even in college i dont know if ill ever meet another bf-type guy.
i have also been very dependant on people, either a female best friend, my mom, or a bf. i have to learn how to be independent, to grow on my own and to learn what i want and dont want. but the prospect of going back to school newly single and alone (and my friends are mutual friends and i really dont want to run into him!) is terrifying. any advice on how to learn to be happy and single, and strong? 🙂
i know i have a lot of maturing to do. but just reading what some older bees that have “been there, done that” makes me feel much much better when at the moment, i feel very much hopeless and alone. thanks for listening 🙂