- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
BB and I have been engaged since September and I was hesitant to pick a date because I went through a period there were I wasn’t sure of being ready to get married. I knew that I wanted to be with BB for the rest of my life but I had a lot of issues at home and I didn’t want to add a wedding onto that stress. So we waited to begin planning…
Well now after almost completing a Bachelors degress in Business Administration I have decided that I want to go back to school for nursing. Unfortunatly becuase of not being able to find any awesome job opportunities where I live I am working as a FT Store Manager @ the mall and BB works as a manager for a large specialty store (pools, spas, fireplaces, pergolas….rich grown-ups Toys R Us). The reason I am rambling about all of this is because when I go back to school I will only be able to work PT which probably won’t even be enough to pay my bills let alone contribute to our living expenses so I will be depending completely on BB.
Due to all of this and that fact that BB and I are supposed to be paying for the majority of our wedding on our own I feel like I will never be able to get married…atleast not until I complete my 3 year program in Nursing. Ugh, that is exhausting to think about.
I know there really isn’t any advice to be given I just wanted to commiserate with someone. I haven’t talked to anyone about it because everytime I talk to BB he is so damn positive he tells me that everything is going to work out and no matter what we will always be together (part of the reason I love him, he always knows the right thing to say) but alas I know that this is just hope and not something either of us can guarantee.
I don’t want to compromise to have a small ceremony or JoP beccause I wouldn’t be happy so I will continue waiting….
*If you made it this far I thank you for listening to this emotional bee!