- 5 years ago
I’m a 30 year old female, ever since I was young I have been hugely ambitious – I had my life planned out and I knew exactly what I wanted to achieve.
I got high grades at high school, gained a scholarship to a Theatre School in London, worked as a professional performer for 4 years and then moved into a career in the media. I’ve been traveling, became a professional chocolatier and also qualified as a health and safety specialist and and have climbed quickly up the ladder and now have a very well paid job in the oil industry.
The issue is that in the last year I have become bored with my role and have totally lost my purpose and motivation to have a career. My other half is very ambitious (he also works in the oil industry and works away) and would like me to stay in the industry I am in to enable us to live abroad together and have a comfortable lifestyle. The thought of staying in the industry at the moment sends shivers down my spine as I am such a creative person. I want to be with him more than anything and have a family but I know that I’ll be unhappy continuing working in an office as I don’t deal well with stress, politics and being couped up – I feel like a square peg in a round hole.
We talked about it and he says he just wants me to be happy. However, if I do choose the creative path we may have to sacrifice being together because I may have to stay here. I don’t want to do that but I also want to be a happy partner to him. The other point which he made was that if I did move to a creative career, I would have other strains on me such as a lack of financial freedom etc and it may not be a case of the grass in greener….
I always feel a dissappointed when people ask what I do for a living, I should be really proud of myself but I’m not.
Maybe its just that I’ve had such incredible jobs in the past and reality is a bitter pill to swallow? I’m just so confused and wish someone could reach out with a crystal ball…?