- 5 years ago
So where to begin…we met June of 2010..it was love at first kiss. It was a crazy night and I kissed him and left with no intention of seeing him again. This feeling kept nagging at me for days…I had just walked away from the love of my life without even getting his phone number. I was newly single with a 6 month old baby at home, this was not a good time to start a reletionship anyway. Long story short he found me and so it began.
Since that night Ive been waiting for his propsal. I made it clear that daiting me with not going to be like dating any other woman cause I have a child and a busy career. No living together before marriage and my daughter would always come first. One of those I stuck to…he moved in with me and my daughter less than a year later. Im so in love with this man..he is so in love with me..but no proposal. Several months ago I had a night of emotional breakdown…basically told him that I felt as if he had plently of oppertunity to propose to me but he hasnt, this seemed as if it was a shock to him. We have talked about marriage several times, even considered buying a home together the first year…to which I replied “not until we are married”. He said that he knows I want to get married but and he does too, he just didnt realize that it was bothering me that bad. So there where signs that we wouldbe moving forward…right? NO!
Reasons why I justify staying: Wonderful with my daughter who loves him. He doesnt slack around the house! Yippie! He still makes me feel those butterflies everyday. He has emotionally and at times financially supported me. He and I have the same likes/dislikes and always have a good time together. My family finally loves him too. He lost his job and had to take a lesser paying job…btw Id settle for a plain band…no bling needed. Is money such a financial blow to his sense of being?
Reason I think I should leave: He had the oppertunity to step up and didnt…still hasnt. He may subconciously think that because I bended on the living together thing that I will bend on marriage? He knows how important this is to me and has done nothing. His family even has put the pressure on him to propose. He can sometime be a procrastinator…he needed a better paying job and plan for his future but didnt look for another one before his savings account was empty.
I could go on for days on this subject so to save all from my ranting….which is what this feels like at this point…just would love to have some feedback from woman in a similar situation. I believe that Im ready to just say splits when our lease is up in four months…but I keep coming back to how good he is with my daughter and how wonderful he is to me…is marriage so important to me that I am willing to give up a day by day happiness just because it isnt official?!?!? Help ladies