- 7 years ago
- Wedding: December 2013
Bees, I am very annoyed. I mean I’m fine, but I’m venting here because otherwise I’ll blow a gasket.
I’ve been having a rough time lately – bereavements, mine and those close to me, work stress, illness – generally not a great period. This past weekend a very dear friend of mine attempted suicide. Again. She has been having difficulty for a long time, and this time we were actually able to help her. We have managed to get her admitted to a psych ward and she’s doing quite well so far. The weekend was a write-off, I got home 5am on MOnday and went to work at 9. I’m still basically a zombie
My SO has just started a new and stressful job. I’ve been as supportive as I can, having the house clean and dinner more or less ready when he’s working long hours, and just being there generally. Anyway yesterday we were to go on a date to Harry Potter. He texted saying work was really busy and he would not make it in to see my friend in the hospital beforehand, which was fine. I asked should I cancel the booking and we could go another night. He said no, he’d be there, this was our date and he wouldn’t miss it.
So as I’m leaving the hospital to go to the cinema he texts to say he won’t make it because he’s stuck at work. I’m disappointed, but OK, he can’t leave a patient. Fine. So I go with another friend. He calls about 20 minutes before the film to say he’s going home! I’m like, what about our date? He’s too tired. Fuming, I go to the film. Later I come home and we have it out, sort of. Turns out he went by a friend’s place for dinner on his way home!
I’m just pissed off – he does this more often than I’m happy with, even though he knows it bothers me. I’m also feeling a bit fragile at the moment and would really like a little support. I know this is really minor and I genuinely am just venting. He’s apologised profusely and we’re going out tomorrow night instead. His job is very stressful, and he’s generally been great. I just wish he’d realise that I’m not quite as strong as I make it look.
I feel better 🙂