- 6 years ago
This is mostly a whiny woe is me post, I’m not seriously thinking about quiting law school so don’t worry.
Any law school bees ever have one of those moments? Those packing up your bag after getting pounced on by a professor and looking towards the exit sign and hearing a little voice tell you RUN SIMBA!!! RUN AWAY AND NEVER RETURN!!!!! That’s what I’m thinking right now.
I just finished my 1L year and have most of my grades. My grades improved slightly from last semester (I’d say I’m about smack dab in the middle of the class so nothing to write home about) and I have a “job” so I guess I’m doing okay. I like the job I’m at now, a lot. The work is interesting and it’s the first job where I don’t have to play Chris Rock’s time game (“I’m not gonna look at the clock for two hours while I scrape these shrimp…okay it’s been two hours…%*# fifteen minutes!”) and where I actually want to come in on Mondays. But I’m not getting paid anything, not even a stipend from my school. My school used to give out grants for public interest jobs to almost any 1L that applied, but my year was the first year they stopped doing that because they ran out of money. They heavily advertised how widely available it was, then when it came time to apply, they told everyone who turned in applications that they were only giving it to a very small handful this year with the absolute best grades (top 10%, which is not me). Just last year it was almost everyone who applied. I had already secured the job anticipating that grant and all they could say was “sorry, we should have said something sooner but we were trying to secure funds. Guess we suck LOLZ!”
And even though I’m working for free, my boss complains about paying for my parking and tried to convince me to cough up for parking in our garage or walk to work every day (well over a mile away). The other students in my class are huge jerks (though I like most of the other clerks at my job, who are from other schools) who participate in bullying I haven’t seen since middle school and I’ve only made a few friends. What’s scary is I know someday, they’ll be my future colleauges…
I know this is where I need to be and I’ve got to pay my dues and do the grunt work and get pooped on by my boss and the professors right now…and I think I’d be okay with that if it weren’t for ebay. I started selling on ebay last year and my business has exploded in growth. I really really love doing it and I’m making enough to be able to supprot myself (that’s why I’m okay working for free this summer). And that’s just doing it part time, imagine what I could do if I was full time. If it weren’t for the whole health insurance thing, I might have dropped out last year to pursue it full time. I’m glad I didn’t because I’ve wanted to be a lawyer forever and I really do enjoy the work I’m doing right now…still paying your dues is hard.
Blah. Pointless post is pointless.