Post # 1
and I keep snapping at him.
I hate it.
I’m so upset about leaving – I don’t even want to go back at this point, I just want to stay here and find a job and be a normal couple. distance sucks, and I hate it. And I hate that we have to deal with it for another 4 months. 🙁
it’s like some part of my subconscious thinks it’ll be easier if he’s mad at me, or if I’m mad at him. I’m upset about everything. Every.stupid.little.thing. And I keep crying all the time, out in public and stuff. I don’t want to leave. 🙁
Post # 3
🙁 I’m so sorry. Let’s hope four months FLY by!
Post # 4
boo…that sucks! hopefully 4 months will go by fast! Just try to stay positive. Good luck!
Post # 5
Oh wow, that’s a horrible feeling–I get that way sometimes too. Did you try explaining that to him? I would. And just keep holding on, 4 months will fly by once you get back and settled into your usual routine.
Post # 6
aw, I remember this part of our LDR. It SUCKED. I was always so irritable before I/he had to leave. I guess it was from stress but ugh. It’ll be over one day and I promise it will be better! Just have to hang in there with your eye towards the future. *hugs*
Post # 7
- Wedding: March 2010 - Calamigos Ranch
Hopefully the four months goes quickly.
Post # 8
Just four more months, and then you never have to be apart again.
Post # 9
I’m so sorry 🙁 I think the next 4 months will go by quickly because you’ll get back into your LDR schedule and routine.
Post # 10
i’m so sorry dd! i know that’s usually a common reaction…i cry a lot the last day or so before he/i leave. if he doesn’t already know the reason behind your outbursts, i’d totally explain what you’re feeling. i do that with my bf even though he knows why i’m suddenly quiet and refuse to look at him. such is the life of an ldr.
but i’m sending you lots of hugs. here’s hoping the next 4 months go by quickly for you.
Post # 11
Awww I’m so sorry….I do the EXACT same thing including the crying over everything. We are here if you need to vent because it will for sure be an adjustment after leaving him ((((HUGS))))
Post # 12
I have experienced similar feelings and conflicts, Dreamweaver. I wanted to say, “I know what you’re going through,” but that’s presumptuous.
In my case, I think I am getting nervous about our rapidly approaching marriage and the fact that we aren’t living day in and day out together, and so I feel like every small disagreement or mistake is an opportunity to take inventory of our relationship and basically micromanage the crap out of it. The ironic thing is I fell in love with him because everything was so easy, but now I am making things really hard because I feel like that’s what married folks do – work on problems. I worry that we enjoy our time together on our brief visits too much and that we’re ignoring glaring issues that need addressed. Of course, this means I am basically inventing things to dissect. It’s crazy.
All that to say, it sucks and its hard and we try to understand ourselves and our partners and its just not easy to understand, but it will be over one day and what we’ll understand clearly then is how worth it everything was.
Post # 13
Awww, daydream I’m so sorry you’re having a rough time. That must be so impossible to deal with. 🙁
Post # 14
thanks for all the encouragement, ladies.
It IS rough, but today has been a lot better. J has been kind of moody too, so either he’s reacting to my moods (very possible) or he’s dealing with the same thing. We can’t talk about me leaving; we both start crying every time it comes up. I feel like a hormonal teenager I’ve been crying so much!
Anyway, today as has been a lot better; we’re relaxing like we would on a normal Sunday and going out to a nice dinner tonight.
Post # 15
ah, I know how that is. I used to dread leaving the mister, so much that is probably ruined our last day or so together. I’d be so anxious that I’d start picking fights, cause I had this idea that if I was angry with him I wouldn’t be so sad to leave.
Four months feels long right now, but once you get back into the swing of things, I’m sure it will fly by. And you have a light at the end of the tunnel!
Post # 16
Glad today is going better. Hopefully the next 4 months just flies by! After the 4 months, will you be back for good?