Post # 1
Lets get this out of the way… I am a high strung person. Maybe I can romantasize it by saying I am a passionate person. I care so incredibly deeply about people, animals things. I create intense feelings and relationahips in literally moments. However I want so desparately for the people I connect with to care aboht me too, I shut down and dont know how to create a real relationship. I want to be loved so badly its scary.
I am terrified of literally most things. Think of a thing and I very well may be afraid of it. Moths? Check. Goats? Check. Anything tipped over in an empty room? Strangely, check. Failure, looking stupid, noy being the best? Check check and triple check.
I am also a crier all the damn time. If Im too hapoy, too sad, embarrassed, startled I will cry. An damn it all if Im not a hideous crier too. My FI has banned me from petco. No seriously. I’m not allowed to go anymore because seeing the kitties who havent been adopted (oh gid especially ones that are still tbere from last time) I will sob uncontrollably. All throuhout the store while trying to convince him that we should open a cat sanctu
Sometimes having such intense feelings is too much. Everything is significant. Every damned littles thing is something and its important. I over react to every situation. I can feel myself unravelling, everyhing flying away from center uncontrollably.
I feel like I need help to handle my own overblown emotions. I don’t know how long I can live in my own head.
Post # 3
@Little_Hedgy: Put pen to paper and write. Write as much or as little as you want. Keep it all secreted away or let someone read it. Write about what causes your emotions, then write what you felt, and how you feel upon reflection.
Post # 4
Some people are more emotional than others. But sometimes it can be a medical condition. If you feel that it is impacting your life negatively then you should defiantely go and see a doctor. It maybe natural, it may be hormonal or it may be another medical condition but you wont know unless you seek help.
Post # 5
I’m so sorry you are dealing with that. It truly does sound overwhelming, and I think most anyone would have a hard time coping with those feelings.
Have you sought professional help? I really think it sounds warranted in this case. That many fears and anxiety isn’t normal. I don’t know if the answer is medication, therapy, a mix of both, something else — but I do know you should exhaust every option not to feel that bad.
Thoughts are with you.
Post # 6
Have you tried talking to a therapist? They might be able to help you sort some of this out so you don’t have to go through as much of your life living with it as you do now. It sounds like the magnitude of your emotions bothers you.
Post # 7
- Wedding: September 2008 - A tiny town just outside of Glacier National Park
Generalized anxiety disorder, welcome to the club! I’ve been in treatment for yeaaaarrrs and I’ve mostly kicked the harmful thought patterns that cause these distressing feelings. I HIGHLY recommend seeking a therapist who specializes in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and considering at least trialing an SSRI while you begin treatment. The SINGULAR most helpful thing for me was a regular practice of mindfulness-awareness meditation and learning Buddhist practices to lessen my personal suffering by accepting myself and not relying on the reactions of others for happiness. Read anything by Pema Chodron or Turning the Mind into an Ally by Sakyong Mipham as a starting point!
Post # 8
I agree with the other posters that you sound really anxious.
It must be hard to live like you are. I think you should see someone too.
A therapist or psychologist, sure, but in the interim see your general practitioner. You might find some cognitive behavioural therapy really useful.
Post # 9
I agree that it sounds like anxiety – talking to a therapist and learning some stress-reduction techniques like deep breathing or meditation may help a lot, or finding a good outlet for your emotions such as art, music, writing, etc. There is a line between very empathetic and how you feel, and I think you will feel a lot better once you are able to dial it back. 🙂 Good luck!