- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
I’m engaged to wonderful man with 2 boys (16&12). We’ve been doing the back and forth for almost 3 years now. We are lucky and only live 2 hours from each other. So i get to see him almost every weekend. He and the boys proposed last June. I’m very excited overall. He can’t move or he will lose having his boys on and off weeks. He has a house where he lives and i really like it there. The issue i’m having is finding a job. At first i really wanted to find a job but lately i realize i really like the job i have. I’m respected and its flexiable. Also my dad has a spinal cord injury and live where i do. I go and see him once a week. I moved to be closer to my dad 5 years ago. For 2 of those i went out every night after work and made dinner and helped him to bed then went home late. I got burned out. Now i only go out once a week. Its never enough for my dad. Anyways i’m going for another interview where my Fiance lives and he’s excited and i’m worried. Worried if they do offer the job and worried if they don’t. We talk about my feelings and he’s very supportive. I realize though in order to have a marriage i need to move there. I am tired of going back and forth each week. I’m able to work from my laptop sometimes but not all the time. I’m just freaking out some b/c the job i’d go to is a 8-5 county clerk. Where now i’m a analyst at a big company. I can’t imagine my life without him and the boys. I know i’d like to see them at the end of the day. The job situation fear is b/c i worked at a company for 10years the woman were mean. I’ve been at my new job for 4 years and they love me. I’m sure i’m making this all harder then it needs to be. Oh and my one friend keeps pressuring me to go try dresses on. I’ve told her i’d let her know but she keeps pushing your running out of time. The thing is between work and looking for a job and living life i’ve no energy to plan the small wedding we are having. We decided to have it at our church and some cake afterwards. I’m good with that. But what to wear. Do we get married while i’m running around crazy?
thanks for letting me get that out.