- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
It’s been a hard last 24 hours. Yesterday, I was super tired from everything that has been going on in my life (wedding in a month, just graduated college last week, moved across state lines during final exam week, etc) and was just exhausted.
Anyway, last night, my mom came into my room (I’m staying with them until the wedding, so this is my first time to live at home in 3 years) and said “You know, you’re being very difficult to be around. I’m tired of having to sneak around you, and I think you need to stop being so harsh all the time.”
I just stared at her until she left the room, then I got dressed and left the house. I know I’m being difficult. I know. I’m doing my best to be nice to everyone and have been doing a good job at hiding everything that’s going on with me. She knows everything that I’m going through. She knows, but I don’t think she understands. She’s always asking me for help with the wedding stuff, wanting me to do her work for her. She doesn’t get that:
– My Fiance is 5 hours away, so he can’t do much for the wedding.
– 1 of my bridesmaids is out of the country until the wedding, another one is very far away, one is having surgery, and the last one is just very unhelpful.
– And when someone doesn’t want to do their delegated tasks, I get stuck with them! For example, we needed to get invitations out quickly, and Fiance and I were in final exams. I was also moving to another state. But Fiance simply couldn’t do the invitations, or at least refused to do so because he was “busy”. The invitations had to be sent out, so who got stuck with them? Me. I did 85% of the invitations ALONE. I did all of mine, most of his, and almost all of my mom’s.
Of course I’m stressed out! Each of these factors ALONE would be stressful, now add them all together on top of one person! I’m just one person! I can’t do it all, and she’s just piling more on. And heaven forbid I get upset because I’m overworked and underwhelmed because then she comes into my room to tell me I’m being “difficult.”
Ugh, I don’t know what to do.