- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
I’m not sure what it is lately. It could be because I’m getting married, but I find myself missing my friends that I lose more and more. I lose friends frequently, because either of us are extremely stubborn to admit we are wrong or because life just gets in the way.I feel the need to make a mends with those who are super important in my life.
There’s a girl I was best friends with for about a year. It was the year that we both really matured and became independent and it was our first time away from home (we were 19 years old). We worked at the same store that summer on Mackinac Island. She and I were both in love with our boyfriends. We were like twins. We were so alike it was RIDICULOUS, like you would think we had the same mama haha. After summer was over she and I got closer. We text and called each other alllll day long. The next summer something had changed. She and I started growing apart because she was depressed, going through some issues, fighting with her boyfriend, etc and she just pushed everyone away, including me. I just didn’t understand because she NEVER said anything. I tried to hold onto our friendship for a year, but she stopped answering my text messages (shutting everyone out of her life) and my phone calls….we were left to the point where our friendship did not exist. I went to a wedding and she was so excited to see me beforehand and during the wedding acted like I didnt exist. That was the last straw…this was in 2009 I was done! We had not spoken since and we were a little dramatic afterwards towards each other. She was my bestttt friend ever. For months from the time we stopped being friends until recently I would have recurring dreams about her. Us being best friends and acting stupid and then I would wake up and realize….we don’t even speak. I would be so upset and it would haunt me for DAYS! We are both so damn stubborn we don’t want to admit we are wrong. Finally, yesterday I gave in. It only took 2 1/2 years. I took the first step and appologized. After hours of us crying about how we can’t believe we let it get this far and we can’t believe we wasted so much time being so stupid, and discussing how much we love each other and no one has been as good of friends to each other as we have, we decided to be friends again. We always pictured being in each others weddings and are so upset that we let everything get this far. I just ALWAYS pictured her there. Honestly it feels great and it feels like part of me is alive again.
I also had another best friend that I’ve known since 9th grade. We have gone through a lot in our friendship. I was in her wedding last year and while it was very stressful for me (I could only imagine how stressful it was for her at that point!) I loved being there for her on her day. Flashforward to several months later where she is pregnant. Hormonally crazy. She slapped me across the forehead for NO reason and then denied it and said she never laid a hand on me and that I need to go to therapy because I’m crazy. IS she for real?! But I missed her….months later I hated her, but I missed her. Finally I decided yesterday as well (in the emotion of the other friend and I rekindling our friendship) to appologize because it’s been a year and she has yet to make a move. Everything got smoothed over and she appologized as well…and everything is good then (But I told her when she’s pregnant DON’T call me hahahah)
I’m asking them both to be in my wedding because whether or not we have talked in the past year or longer, I CANNOT imagine walking down the aisle without them both by my side!