- 7 years ago
Oh my… How embarrassing…
Those are the thoughts that went through my head this morning when I woke up. Last night was a m-e-s-s.
The giant and I went to a married couple’s house last night for dinner. I brought a casserole since they have an adorable 4mo baby. In the turn of conversation, the husband pulled out the laptop and showed us a video of him proposing to his lady through the window of her sky-scraper building. He had a news crew there and it was a big deal. It was also way over the top, but whatev. That’s his style.
On the drive home, the giant jokingly said that the video put him back by two months in planning. Well, that kinda bummed me out, even though I knew he was joking.
We get to the house that we’re house sitting this week (Yay for getting to play house all week! We normally live about 20mi apart.) and get into bed. He asked if I wanted to know what he and our husband friend were talking about in the living room. He said he wouldn’t tell me specifics, but he would tell me what about. At first I said no, I didn’t want to know. … … Then I said yes. Bad idea.
He told me that our friend had asked him if, when we go visit my family in Texas in a week, he’ll pull my dad aside and ask him for permission. But that’s all he would tell me. So either he will ask my parents before we go or maybe not until we get to Texas and in that case, maybe he won’t ask me until the end of the trip or maybe even after we get home. So many options.
Well, the first thing that came to mind is that I may not be able to go dress shopping with my mom and gra’ma. (See http://boards.weddingbee.com/topic/question-for-the-experienced-in-dress-shopping for info on that discussion. Urgh.)
It kinda broke my heart that it’s now a reality that my gra’ma may not see me in a wedding dress. It’s unknown whether my family will be able to come to Seattle for the wedding, as they are of little means, so I was hoping that at least dress shopping we could share.
So, I turned over and cried. And we talked. And I cried. And I got completely frustrated with myself because about three weeks ago I set a goal of NOT talking about it with him until we got back from Texas if it hadn’t happened yet. So, I didn’t make it to my goal. But I’m not sure that’s my fault… he did bring it up. 😛 Also I told him that I don’t really think it’s fair that everything else in our relationship is shared except this because it’s tradition that it’s a surprise. And that because I’m completely kept out of the loop, it causes me stress. In our relationship, I send out the invites to parties. I keep the schedule of social events. I’m basically the secretary for us, which is fine because it’s my personality. But to be completely out of the loop on something that is so important just seems… wicked. I also told him that sometimes I feel like he taunts me with it. He showed me the diamond in January and mentioning what our friend had asked but not telling me the answer, it’s not fun for me. Then he started to feel bad and his eyes got all misty.
I debated with myself on whether I should tell him why I was upset. NOT because he hasn’t asked me. And not because he may or may not talk to my parents when we’re in Texas. I mean, getting proposed to in my home town would be awful sweet. I’m really okay with it. What upset me was the dress shopping thing. In the end, I told him I wasn’t upset about the asking, just something related to it, which I’m not sure helped him.
Yikes. Blarg. URgh. and all that in between. I just needed to get it off my chest. And maybe hear some of y’all’s opinions on it. So please, opinion away.