- 4 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
I just can’t believe it! 37 days until my wedding and my mom who has struggled with alcoholism all her life has fallen of the wagon hard!
I got woken up at 4:45 this morning by my brother who had got a phone call from a random person say that our mother was lost and confused after walking around the local forest preserve and had stopped him and asked him to call us to come get her and that she was walking to the police station. I jump in the car head that direction and find her walking on the side of the road, wet and covered in mud. Apparently, she went on an all-night binger in the forest preserve “fell asleep” under a tree and when she came to in the middle of the night became disoriented (fell into the creek) until dawn when she could see better and probably sobered up a bit.
I’m in shock. As the daughter of a lifelong alcoholic I’ve seen some crazy shit in my life, but nothing like this. She had been sober for nearly 2 years after years on top of years in and out of rehab, half way houses, and sober living homes. She just left a three quarter house a month ago and was living with a good friend, also sober. She had a good job, good friends, family support, and was really looking forward to the wedding. I know it doesn’t take much for an alcoholic to pick up the bottle again, but I just can’t understand why now?
Her roommate checked her into the hospital and I know where this leads, 60 to 90 day rehab. This blows attending my bridal shower and the wedding right out of the water. This also means losing her job, falling behind on her cell phone bill, her car insurance, etc. Honestly, I’m not even mad at her. I’m just so shocked and disappointed. I feel so sorry for her because I know that as she dries out in that hospital room, alone, the gravity of her choice to drink again will weigh on her like nothing imaginable and it will break her heart to know she threw everything she worked so hard for these last couple of years right out the window.