- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2010
Okay, this is going to be all kinds of out of order, but here’s lots of stuff I’ve been thinking of. I’ve grown really fond of all the bees here, and think that it’d be a great place to “vent”, so to speak!
#1. Bridesmaids are in an argument.
Yes! WTF? I have three best girlfriends, all living in Texas (I live in Indiana.) We’ve been BFF’s (all Sex and the City, I know) for years now, and I love them so much I couldn’t think of anyone else to be my three bridesmaids. Suddenly, S is in a fight with my MOH, L! Granted L has had some issues with her drinking and partying lately, which is particularly concerning seeing as she has a 4 year old, our ringbearer. But I’ve generally found that sometimes the best way to help people is to just let them live their lives, learn things for themselves (to a point), and be a source of support when they need you. Anyway, S and L are fighting now (they’ve never fought before) over something really, really silly (L is having a Christmas party and inviting a girl that S doesn’t like … although I don’t understand how anyone could like this girl … who has a birthday party and charges $20 a head to get into it?!) Anyway, I’m staying out of it and praying they work it out. They’re smart girls, but L’s just in a funk and is stubborn to boot. I just can’t imagine them not being my girls on that day. They mean the world to me.
#2. Two words. BABY. FEVER. Two more words. NO. MONEY.
Dear God. Really. Everywhere I go since I’ve gotten engaged it’s like, babies, babies, babies. I mean, I’ve always liked babies and children. I was a teacher last year for goodness sake. But now, they’re eeeverywhere. I’ve gotten into the habit of squealing at every baby I see and telling Austin, “Honey, I want those! I want all of them, all the colors and sizes and shapes, I just want to collect them all!” There’s some teenagers in the youth group of the church his grandfather pastors, and we spend lots of time over there. These teenagers have a 6 month old, the dad works full time at an Arby’s for about $300+ a check, and … okay, I’m not going to get into the details, but anyway, I love these kids. They’re trying hard. When they’re around though, I cuddle on that baby like you wouldn’t believe. Sometimes I just want to take him home! When I babysat him with Austin once for about an hour, poor thing was crying from teething, and I just rocked him until he went to sleep. Austin was so cute playing with him. And I know Austin wants kids, too. But no kids until he has his BA (I have mine) which could be in another two years … and even then, we probably won’t be able to afford a baby, much less hospital expenses. I’m a full time bank teller right now, making about $500 a check (if I’m lucky) and he’s unemployed because he has a hard time balancing school and work which I empathize with, good Lord do I empathize with.
It’s just … agh. I want one so badly. And I know baby fever isn’t even nearly the same thing as actually being ready for a baby … but I think about it everyday to the point where I’m looking at baby clothes online, day dreaming about how I’ll dress her! We even have names picked out: Evelynn-Rose Valentine for a girl (after Valentine in the novel Ender’s Game) and Elliott Andrew for a boy (Andrew, after Ender’s birth name) …
I just hate that if we both had good jobs with our degrees (or the degree he’s working on now) we could get started. Wamp. Daydreaming for now it is.
That’s really all that was on my mind. Daydreaming about the wedding is easy. I mean, it’s hard enough trying to plan it on my meager earnings but it really isn’t that stressful at all. Being creative is what I do! 🙂
At any rate, my FH is the bomb-diggity, with or with babies, money, or bickering bridesmaids. 😀
I’m going to go drool over http://www.ohdeedoh.com/ now, haha.